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♪<i> I know what you wanna say </i>♪

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♪<i> I think that you're all the same </i>♪

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♪<i> Constantly being led astray </i>♪

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- Good morning.
- Hey.

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♪<i> You think you know...</i>

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Shuffle forward just a little bit.

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Gonna go on three.

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One, two, three.

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♪<i> Downtown hot spot </i>♪

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♪<i> Halfway up the street </i>♪

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♪<i> I used to be free </i>♪

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♪<i> I used to be 17 </i>♪

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♪<i> Follow my shadow </i>♪

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♪<i> around your corner </i>♪

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♪<i> I used to be 17 </i>♪

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♪<i> Now you're just like me, down...</i>

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Yeah.

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Hey.

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Don't tell me. Maya.

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Charlie. Good to meet you.

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Did you text me?
Weren't you supposed to text me?

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- Uh, I texted, yeah.
- You did?

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Well, shit. Uh...

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Sorry. Come on in.

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You can use it as a nightstand.

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You can put it at the foot of your couch.

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You can put books on it.
I mean, it's good for books.

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I was using it for that. I...

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You in sales?

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Um, no, I-- uh, it'd take me a while
to explain what I do.

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But I-I'm working towards my PhD.

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And are you a, uh, doctor or something?

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That's cool.

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I'm a nurse. Is this drawer decorative?

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What do you mean?

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- Sorry.
- That way. Sorry.

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No, you're good.

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That's not right.

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It is supposed to open.

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Like drawers should.

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- I'll give you 75.
- Ah.

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My gosh. I know you from somewhere.

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Have we met?

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No, I don't think so.

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Are you sure?

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Yeah, I don't think so.

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'Cause you're familiar to me
in a really specific way.

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And it's...

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it's great.

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Okay.

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Um...

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Are you gonna negotiate or...?

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Those are pretty cool
shoes you got there.

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They're grippier than sneakers.

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You don't have to defend them to me.

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Good. Yeah, I wasn't.
Everyone wears these.

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Not everyone picks that color though.

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- Well, got everything you need?
- Yeah.

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Want to go out with me sometime?

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Um...

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Maybe. Yeah, I'll think ab--
uh, I'll think about it.

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Yeah, mull it over.

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And get some outside opinions.

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I'll be here.

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Text me. You have my number.

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Want a ride home or something?

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You gonna carry that?

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I got it. Y-Yeah.

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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- Bye.
- Have fun.

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I got it.

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Shit.

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I just can't believe you had a Walkman.

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It's pretty cool.

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Yeah. I, um...

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Old box of my mom's stuff.

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So, um, you made this?

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Kind of hypnotized me.

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Yeah, it's just, uh, it's a phrase

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from an old recording,
this old brass piece that I love.

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A few measures, but, uh,
I spliced the tape together

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so it plays like a loop.

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Except it-it...
it changes a little each time.

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Uh, the more you play it,
the more the tape degrades, right?

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It's just-- it's iron oxide
glued to plastic.

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So it dissolves, you know, it disappears,

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and the music just sort of, uh...

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Dies?

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Yeah.

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Can I keep this?

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No, sorry.

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Yeah, of course.
Technically, you bought it, so...

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What?

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I want to know about you.

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What do you want to know?

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Uh, your-your likes, dislikes.

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What's the hardest part about your job.

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What pisses you off.

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What you love.

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How you feel about your mom.

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Everything.

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Okay.

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ER is chaos.

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It's, um...

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It's like working in a restaurant where

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everyone's ordering off a different menu
and they all hate the food.

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Sounds relaxing.

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I like it though.

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I can imagine, though,
that'd be kind of...

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Yeah.

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You learn to compartmentalize.

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<i>Uh, you know,</i>

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I like math.

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Used to ask my brothers
if I could do their homework. Uh...

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- So you were a nerd.
- Yeah.

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It was, uh... it was bad.

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<i>Yeah, I was.</i>

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I was really shy,
and then in, like, fourth grade,

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we played truth or dare
for the first time,

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and I... I did every single dare.

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- I...
- That was it.

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The planets aligned.

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- Like...
- Oh, my God.

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I-I let my...

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Yeah, I... I...

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Everyone realized that I was
secretly a little freak.

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Truth or dare.

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- Truth.
- I had a really good dare.

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You want to have kids one day?

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Um...

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<i>I don't know.</i>

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<i>I always thought I did, but now I wonder</i>

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<i>if it's kind of messed up to have kids</i>
<i>at the end of the world.</i>

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<i>How do you know</i>
<i>it's the end of the world?</i>

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<i>I don't know. Isn't it?</i>

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<i>What if it's not?</i>

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♪<i> The sky and what's left above it </i>♪

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♪<i> The way you want nothing of it </i>♪

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♪<i> Baby, I'm yours </i>♪

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♪<i> You built a city </i>♪

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♪<i> all in your head </i>♪

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♪<i> You know you're not losing your mind </i>♪

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♪<i> What's left, you make something of it </i>♪

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♪<i> The sky and what's left above it </i>♪♪

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Sorry.

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I have, uh...

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Asthma.

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Nurse.

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It's not usually an issue, but, um...

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Yeah, you're... you know.

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Y-You should take it as a compliment.

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Tastes sweet.

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You're a freak.

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You're a nerd.

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Yeah.

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- Good morning.
- Hey.

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Hmm. Fun night?

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What is this? What is this?

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What is this face?

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What's what face?

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You like someone.

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Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

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I am... I'm shocked.

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I don't know whether to puke or cry.

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You better tell me everything.

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I like someone.

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♪<i> </i>♪

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So you were six months old?

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Yeah.

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It's sweet that your parents
wanted you so much.

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Yeah.

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My mom said I just wouldn't
stop laughing, as a baby.

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I was, like, a really happy baby.

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That tracks.

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Yeah, she's, uh, she's pretty cool.

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What about you? What about your parents?

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I was the product of a one-night stand.

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It was a... all-inclusive resort.

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Sounds like it.

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Sorry.

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Um, yeah.

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He was Scottish.

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He went back to Scotland.

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That was that.

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He just was, like, he was gone?

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I mean, I don't really know him.

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I don't, uh, I don't talk to my dad.

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I don't know my dad.

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What about your mom?

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She was 22 when she had me,
so she was, like...

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I don't know,
there's definitely resentment there.

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And, um, when I went to college,

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she moved to Australia
with her weird boyfriend.

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A different weird boyfriend
than she has now.

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But you, like, see her
for, like, holidays and stuff?

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No, I always did...
I did holidays with Jason.

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He was always on his own, too.

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We'd make Stove Top and, you know,

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watch <i>Addams Family Values</i>
and make the best of it.

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It was good for me.

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I learned to be independent.

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Yeah. Look, I mean...

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Do you want me to help?
I mean, I-I want to help.

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So just call me anytime.

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I mean, I'm usually at the office
at, like, uh, 6:00 a.m., so...

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Uh, okay. Thanks, yeah.

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I'll probably call you
a little later than that.

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- Yeah. No, I--
- Release this poor person.

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- Okay. Yeah.
- Charlie's here.

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I want you to meet him. Come here.

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Yeah, all right. Whoa. Sorry.

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- Charlie.
- Hey.

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- Hey, what's up, dude?
- Jason.

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- Oh.
- Here, sorry. Can you hold this?

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Hey, I'm Jason.

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- Great to meet you.
- Nice to meet you, dude. Oh.

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- You got a firm handshake, man.
- Thank you.

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- Yeah.
- Yeah, thanks. You, too.

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Thanks, man. I've heard a lot about you.

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- Same, dude. Yeah. Yeah.
- Oh.

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Okay, Café Midnight
at the basement of Towers, right?

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Maya's there. She's doing her work-study.

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She's got the hairnet, the gloves.

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She's serving the curly fries,
the mozzarella sticks,

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the-the triangle pocket thing--
What are the--

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What were
the triangle pocket things called?

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- The ones we loved.
- Uh, triangle pockets.

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No. Maya, the tr--

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Okay, whatever. Forget it.
They're delicious, right?

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And she would never share hers.

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So, anyways, I show up there

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with a bunch of the hockey guys.

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They had some stupid bet about,
like, how much, uh,

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what was it, like, hot sauce
that one of the goalies

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- could drink or something, so--
- Okay.

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Wh-What position did you play
on the hockey team?

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No, no. I didn't play hock-- I-I-I...

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A lot of the hockey guys
lived on my floor.

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So I just went with them.
I was bearing witness, I guess.

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I don't know. What-what was I doing there?

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Anyways-- Wait, wow, you thought
I was a hockey player?

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- Yeah.
- You just made my night.

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- Yeah?
- Hey.

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- He thought I played D1 hockey.
- Yeah.

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I love this guy.

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I told you not to make so much.

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Yeah. Yeah.

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You're literally
the only person I've ever met

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who likes Long Island iced tea.

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That's not true.

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Jason had a lot.

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Okay? He had, like, I don't know, five?

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He was drinking them with me.

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Jason will drink anything.

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Yeah, well...

258
00:13:28,250 --> 00:13:30,750
- Yeah, but... I'm still--
- What'd you think of him?

259
00:13:30,833 --> 00:13:31,833
He's awesome.

260
00:13:31,916 --> 00:13:34,416
And we're going to Wally's
for blues night on Tuesday.

261
00:13:34,500 --> 00:13:38,083
Well, be prepared that
he might flake on you, okay?

262
00:13:38,166 --> 00:13:41,041
Or he might show up really late
or drunk or hungover or...

263
00:13:41,125 --> 00:13:42,250
What-what?

264
00:13:42,333 --> 00:13:43,875
...ask you to pick him up in Eastie

265
00:13:43,958 --> 00:13:45,833
because he's crashed
some bachelorette party.

266
00:13:45,916 --> 00:13:49,375
It sounds like you're speaking
from experience.

267
00:13:49,458 --> 00:13:51,541
You know, he and I, um...

268
00:13:51,625 --> 00:13:54,375
I wouldn't even call it dating.

269
00:13:54,458 --> 00:13:58,583
It was like two weeks before we realized
that was absolutely not happening.

270
00:13:58,666 --> 00:14:00,083
- Hey, Maya.
- Mm-hmm?

271
00:14:00,166 --> 00:14:02,000
I don't care.

272
00:14:02,083 --> 00:14:03,291
I don't care.

273
00:14:05,083 --> 00:14:06,875
I'm gonna get him water.

274
00:14:12,916 --> 00:14:15,500
<i>You see your family all the time.</i>
<i>Can't I just come next time?</i>

275
00:14:15,583 --> 00:14:17,041
So you don't want to go.

276
00:14:17,125 --> 00:14:18,458
I just told you, I'm exhausted.

277
00:14:18,541 --> 00:14:21,750
No. No, that's not what this is.

278
00:14:21,833 --> 00:14:23,583
I worked a 16-hour shift yesterday.

279
00:14:23,666 --> 00:14:25,250
I...

280
00:14:25,333 --> 00:14:27,375
I did CPR on a guy twice my size.

281
00:14:27,458 --> 00:14:29,750
I broke up a fight
between two drunk assholes.

282
00:14:29,833 --> 00:14:31,541
- I cleaned up vomit. I got peed on.
- Okay. Okay.

283
00:14:31,625 --> 00:14:33,041
I mean, does that not sound
exhausting to you?

284
00:14:33,125 --> 00:14:35,166
No, I-- It does, okay?
It sounds exhausting.

285
00:14:35,250 --> 00:14:37,583
Okay, so I'm sorry I don't feel like
being around a bunch of people right now.

286
00:14:37,666 --> 00:14:39,583
It's not "a bunch of people."
It's my family.

287
00:14:39,666 --> 00:14:40,666
It's my mother. It's my brothers.

288
00:14:40,750 --> 00:14:42,416
They really want to meet you.

289
00:14:42,500 --> 00:14:45,125
Maya, this mean-- Come on.
This means something to me.

290
00:14:45,208 --> 00:14:46,875
Now you're just trying to guilt me.

291
00:14:46,958 --> 00:14:49,250
- I'm not trying to guilt you.
- You're being a baby.

292
00:14:49,333 --> 00:14:50,958
You're being shitty.

293
00:14:51,041 --> 00:14:52,041
Good one.

294
00:14:52,125 --> 00:14:53,125
Maya.

295
00:15:11,416 --> 00:15:14,125
♪<i> I'll love you anyway...</i>

296
00:15:16,416 --> 00:15:18,250
What if they don't like me?

297
00:15:19,708 --> 00:15:21,541
What if I'm, um...

298
00:15:24,458 --> 00:15:26,791
...if I just don't know
how to act around them?

299
00:15:26,875 --> 00:15:29,666
I'm-I'm-I'm just-- I'm not good
with other people's families.

300
00:15:29,750 --> 00:15:32,958
I'm not good with families in general.

301
00:15:33,041 --> 00:15:34,708
Can I tell you something?

302
00:15:35,291 --> 00:15:38,250
I've never brought anyone home before.

303
00:15:38,333 --> 00:15:39,666
Never.

304
00:15:41,458 --> 00:15:44,208
That's how sure I am
that they're gonna love you.

305
00:15:45,375 --> 00:15:49,166
♪<i> La-la-la, la, la...</i>

306
00:15:54,916 --> 00:15:56,625
<i>You good?</i>

307
00:15:56,708 --> 00:15:58,000
<i>Yeah.</i>

308
00:15:58,083 --> 00:15:59,416
Hey, Mom!

309
00:16:00,833 --> 00:16:03,250
Ker, they're here!

310
00:16:03,333 --> 00:16:05,458
- How's it going?
- Great.

311
00:16:06,875 --> 00:16:07,916
- Hi.
- This is, uh...

312
00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:09,208
- I'm Ruth.
- So nice to meet you.

313
00:16:09,291 --> 00:16:11,708
Ah, same here. Oh, my goodness.

314
00:16:11,791 --> 00:16:13,625
I brought you some flowers, um,

315
00:16:13,708 --> 00:16:15,333
- but I also brought you beer, so...
- Thank you.

316
00:16:15,416 --> 00:16:17,083
- Better yet.
- Okay, great.

317
00:16:17,166 --> 00:16:18,833
- Do you want me to carry these or...?
- No, no, no, no.

318
00:16:18,916 --> 00:16:20,041
I'm-I'm good. I'm hearty.

319
00:16:20,125 --> 00:16:21,125
- Hi.
- Hi.

320
00:16:21,208 --> 00:16:22,416
I'm Kerry. Good seeing you.

321
00:16:22,500 --> 00:16:23,958
- So nice to meet you.
- Welcome, welcome.

322
00:16:24,041 --> 00:16:25,208
Come out back. Everybody's out back.

323
00:16:26,666 --> 00:16:29,125
Even after I paid the fee,

324
00:16:29,208 --> 00:16:30,750
this kid looks me
straight in the eye, he says,

325
00:16:30,833 --> 00:16:34,833
"Dad, I'm not joining
because Mensa is elitist."

326
00:16:34,916 --> 00:16:36,541
- It is.
- I told him, "I don't care."

327
00:16:36,625 --> 00:16:38,833
I said, "You're gonna sign
on the dotted line, pal."

328
00:16:38,916 --> 00:16:40,125
You know, which he did, of course.

329
00:16:40,208 --> 00:16:41,541
He's always been good-natured.

330
00:16:41,625 --> 00:16:43,708
- And I was ten.
- Ten and good-natured.

331
00:16:43,791 --> 00:16:45,375
That was when
Charlie got obsessed with zero.

332
00:16:45,458 --> 00:16:47,708
Oh, my God, the zero phase.

333
00:16:47,791 --> 00:16:49,458
I mean, it's something
representing nothing.

334
00:16:49,541 --> 00:16:51,458
Uh, come on. That's cool.

335
00:16:51,541 --> 00:16:53,708
Remember when, uh--
what were you, like, 11th grade

336
00:16:53,791 --> 00:16:55,666
for that paper you had to write?

337
00:16:55,750 --> 00:16:56,958
- Oh, yeah.
- The non-paper?

338
00:16:57,041 --> 00:16:58,333
- The non-paper.
- Yes.

339
00:16:58,416 --> 00:16:59,666
He was, like, protesting

340
00:16:59,750 --> 00:17:02,958
the invention of writing
replacing the oral tradition--

341
00:17:03,041 --> 00:17:04,750
Yes, replace the oral tradition.

342
00:17:04,833 --> 00:17:05,833
- Right.
- That's right.

343
00:17:05,916 --> 00:17:08,166
So he recorded it on...

344
00:17:08,250 --> 00:17:09,500
- on tape.
- He spoke it.

345
00:17:09,583 --> 00:17:10,583
- On principle...
- Yes.

346
00:17:10,666 --> 00:17:11,916
- Yeah.
- ...I think it was consistent

347
00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:13,125
with the theme of the class.

348
00:17:13,208 --> 00:17:14,625
Yeah, but it was creative writing.

349
00:17:14,708 --> 00:17:17,583
The only thing written on it was
the letter "F," which is what he got.

350
00:17:17,666 --> 00:17:19,666
- But he still, he still aced the course.
- Yeah.

351
00:17:19,750 --> 00:17:21,541
That is our Charlie, right there.

352
00:17:21,625 --> 00:17:22,708
Brilliant?

353
00:17:23,416 --> 00:17:24,750
Passionate.

354
00:17:25,541 --> 00:17:27,375
Hey, you guys want burgers, dogs?

355
00:17:27,458 --> 00:17:28,541
Maya?

356
00:17:28,625 --> 00:17:31,291
I'll take a burger, thank you.

357
00:17:31,375 --> 00:17:32,875
- Yeah, I'd like one.
- Yeah, both.

358
00:17:36,250 --> 00:17:38,416
- What can I do to help?
- Nothing.

359
00:17:38,500 --> 00:17:40,000
- Thank you.
- You sure?

360
00:17:40,083 --> 00:17:42,041
Pretty much the state of things
around here.

361
00:17:42,125 --> 00:17:43,708
Just leave it.

362
00:17:43,791 --> 00:17:46,000
- Okay.
- Plus, the boys do the dishes.

363
00:17:46,083 --> 00:17:49,875
I realized a long time ago
that that's what sons are for.

364
00:17:49,958 --> 00:17:51,416
Yeah, that's what we're for.

365
00:17:51,500 --> 00:17:53,208
I'm building a fort!
I'm the king of the fortress.

366
00:17:53,291 --> 00:17:55,000
Yeah, not so much.

367
00:17:55,791 --> 00:17:57,250
Uh...

368
00:17:57,333 --> 00:17:58,666
You know what you can do?

369
00:17:58,750 --> 00:18:00,875
Uh, you can feed Wilma.

370
00:18:00,958 --> 00:18:03,208
- She was really good at dinner and--
- Sure.

371
00:18:03,291 --> 00:18:04,875
Yeah. Uh, the food's right there.

372
00:18:04,958 --> 00:18:06,291
Around there.

373
00:18:06,375 --> 00:18:08,000
Thank you.

374
00:18:12,416 --> 00:18:14,375
- Is this Charlie?
- Yeah.

375
00:18:14,458 --> 00:18:17,666
It's the first photo we got of him
before we adopted him.

376
00:18:17,750 --> 00:18:21,250
Kerry just keeps putting it in all these
different places around the house.

377
00:18:23,916 --> 00:18:25,625
- So sweet.
- Yeah.

378
00:18:26,708 --> 00:18:29,000
You know, he's never
brought anyone home before.

379
00:18:30,791 --> 00:18:34,916
I know. He just told me that
in the car ride on the way over here.

380
00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:36,375
- Oh.
- I was shocked,

381
00:18:36,458 --> 00:18:39,750
because, I mean, you guys are so close.

382
00:18:39,833 --> 00:18:40,875
Yeah.

383
00:18:40,958 --> 00:18:42,250
Yeah.

384
00:18:42,333 --> 00:18:45,958
Well, must be pretty special, hmm?

385
00:18:46,041 --> 00:18:47,708
Let's go outside.

386
00:18:47,791 --> 00:18:48,791
Come on.

387
00:18:48,875 --> 00:18:50,125
Okay.

388
00:18:52,958 --> 00:18:55,375
Who wants to go for a beach walk?

389
00:19:04,333 --> 00:19:07,916
<i>I didn't really know</i>
<i>this existed, but, um...</i>

390
00:19:08,000 --> 00:19:10,041
<i>-</i>
- <i>What?</i>

391
00:19:10,125 --> 00:19:11,958
<i>Just... this.</i>

392
00:19:13,125 --> 00:19:14,750
<i>But I get it now.</i>

393
00:19:20,458 --> 00:19:22,125
I love you.

394
00:19:25,583 --> 00:19:27,166
I love you.

395
00:19:31,041 --> 00:19:33,416
Yeah!

396
00:19:54,250 --> 00:19:55,375
Thank you.

397
00:20:06,250 --> 00:20:08,125
- Yeah?
- Yeah, you'll like that one.

398
00:20:11,875 --> 00:20:13,875
I know you mentioned it, but...

399
00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:17,083
This is beautiful.

400
00:20:17,166 --> 00:20:18,916
- Really?
- Yeah.

401
00:20:22,666 --> 00:20:24,291
<i>I think "nasty"</i>
<i>is the perfect word</i>

402
00:20:24,375 --> 00:20:25,583
<i>- to describe it.</i>

403
00:20:25,666 --> 00:20:27,875
<i>- We've seen pretty consistent rain...</i>
- What do you think? Should we cancel?

404
00:20:27,958 --> 00:20:30,000
Everybody's gonna show up
even if there's a monsoon.

405
00:20:30,083 --> 00:20:33,500
Yeah. Yeah, it is my 30th birthday.

406
00:20:33,583 --> 00:20:35,750
I don't need an out.

407
00:20:35,833 --> 00:20:36,833
Do you?

408
00:20:37,875 --> 00:20:39,500
No. I'm good.

409
00:20:40,541 --> 00:20:43,583
Uh, Jason's gonna pick up my parents
from the train station.

410
00:20:43,666 --> 00:20:46,375
- Does he know to be on time?
- Come on, give him some credit.

411
00:20:46,458 --> 00:20:47,541
What do you think? Top button?

412
00:20:47,625 --> 00:20:49,708
Done? Undone? Should I get my jacket?

413
00:20:49,791 --> 00:20:51,000
Help me.

414
00:20:52,250 --> 00:20:54,208
I think you can save the jacket.

415
00:20:56,500 --> 00:20:58,208
What?

416
00:20:58,291 --> 00:21:00,041
You're perfect.

417
00:21:01,250 --> 00:21:02,458
You kidding me?

418
00:21:02,541 --> 00:21:04,791
Seriously?

419
00:21:21,750 --> 00:21:23,541
- Wait, literally?
- Just six months. One... Yeah.

420
00:21:23,625 --> 00:21:24,791
Charlie!

421
00:21:24,875 --> 00:21:26,583
- Oh, shit.
- Go. Go, go, go.

422
00:21:26,666 --> 00:21:27,916
Hey.

423
00:21:28,000 --> 00:21:29,625
- Hey, dude.
- Hey, hey. What's up?

424
00:21:29,708 --> 00:21:31,291
- Bro, you're so late.
- Y-Yeah, I'm sorry.

425
00:21:31,375 --> 00:21:33,166
- There's a freakin' thunderstorm, but...
- Happy birthday. Oh.

426
00:21:33,250 --> 00:21:34,583
- Hey, boy genius.
- Love you.

427
00:21:34,666 --> 00:21:35,791
- Hey, Dad.
- Happy birthday.

428
00:21:35,875 --> 00:21:36,875
- Sorry, guys.
- Oh, no.

429
00:21:36,958 --> 00:21:37,958
It's a thousand degrees in here.

430
00:22:05,166 --> 00:22:06,166
You told them.

431
00:22:08,375 --> 00:22:10,333
No.

432
00:22:10,916 --> 00:22:13,916
I spend a lot of time, uh, in my work

433
00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:17,916
thinking about the...
the awe and-and wonder emotions,

434
00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:19,500
we call them, uh...

435
00:22:19,583 --> 00:22:23,583
What your brain chemistry does
when you marvel at really tiny things

436
00:22:23,666 --> 00:22:26,583
or stand close to really big ones.

437
00:22:26,666 --> 00:22:29,708
Just the things in this world that...

438
00:22:29,791 --> 00:22:31,666
they just make you feel really small...

439
00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:35,750
...but somehow...

440
00:22:35,833 --> 00:22:38,375
just really important
at the same time.

441
00:22:39,208 --> 00:22:41,625
It's just, you know in your soul

442
00:22:41,708 --> 00:22:45,083
that whatever you're looking at,
it's just, uh...

443
00:22:45,166 --> 00:22:47,375
man, it's-it's really special.

444
00:22:49,875 --> 00:22:52,666
Yeah, you just got to stand there
and take it in.

445
00:22:54,291 --> 00:22:56,625
Maya, I-I, uh...

446
00:22:58,125 --> 00:23:00,416
I-I get that feeling from you.

447
00:23:03,000 --> 00:23:04,708
Every day of my life.

448
00:23:06,166 --> 00:23:07,750
God, I'm so nervous.

449
00:23:12,666 --> 00:23:14,666
- Charlie.
- Yes?

450
00:23:17,458 --> 00:23:21,375
I never even, uh, dreamed
of romantic love.

451
00:23:24,750 --> 00:23:26,750
I know how that sounds, but...

452
00:23:29,291 --> 00:23:32,041
...it wasn't something
that I thought I needed.

453
00:23:34,958 --> 00:23:36,833
And then...

454
00:23:37,791 --> 00:23:39,291
I met you.

455
00:23:44,916 --> 00:23:46,750
And you changed everything.

456
00:23:49,208 --> 00:23:51,208
You are my dream come true.

457
00:23:53,583 --> 00:23:56,666
You are the dream that I didn't even know
that I ever had.

458
00:23:56,750 --> 00:23:58,750
♪ <i>You</i> ♪

459
00:23:58,833 --> 00:24:02,333
♪<i> can't see past my blindness </i>♪

460
00:24:04,416 --> 00:24:05,833
<i>- </i>♪<i> Oh, Ophelia...</i>

461
00:24:05,916 --> 00:24:07,708
I really wish
you guys could stay.

462
00:24:07,791 --> 00:24:09,875
- Get home safe, okay?
- Yeah.

463
00:24:09,958 --> 00:24:11,250
- Way to go.
- Uh...

464
00:24:12,625 --> 00:24:13,625
- Don't go.
- Oh.

465
00:24:13,708 --> 00:24:16,375
We got you a hotel around the corner.
It was a surprise.

466
00:24:17,625 --> 00:24:18,791
It was a surprise.

467
00:24:18,875 --> 00:24:19,958
And I'm just...

468
00:24:20,041 --> 00:24:22,958
I'm really just glad
that you got to do this

469
00:24:23,041 --> 00:24:24,708
the way you wanted to.

470
00:24:28,458 --> 00:24:30,250
- Love you, sweetie.
- Bye, Mom.

471
00:24:31,291 --> 00:24:33,041
- Happy birthday.
- Yeah.

472
00:24:35,500 --> 00:24:36,708
- Excuse me.
- Here we go.

473
00:24:36,791 --> 00:24:37,791
Here-here we go.

474
00:24:37,875 --> 00:24:40,416
I'm, uh, I'm-I'm Jason.

475
00:24:40,500 --> 00:24:44,083
I've-I've had the pleasure of knowing Maya
ever since college,

476
00:24:44,166 --> 00:24:47,083
and, um, and she has been my best friend.

477
00:24:47,166 --> 00:24:48,375
I mean, she's QB1.

478
00:24:48,458 --> 00:24:50,125
Never flinches, always shows up,

479
00:24:50,208 --> 00:24:53,833
even if you need stitches at 3:00 a.m.

480
00:24:53,916 --> 00:24:56,625
She's the only person
I've ever wanted to hang out with

481
00:24:56,708 --> 00:24:59,625
until... she introduced me to Charlie.

482
00:25:01,333 --> 00:25:03,416
How many people in here would...

483
00:25:03,500 --> 00:25:06,500
would consider Charlie
one of their best friends?

484
00:25:08,083 --> 00:25:10,416
No, I-- Me, too. Me, too.

485
00:25:10,500 --> 00:25:11,875
It's-it's a dogfight, man. It is.

486
00:25:11,958 --> 00:25:15,208
You know? I mean, I met someone earlier
that was from your kindergarten class

487
00:25:15,291 --> 00:25:17,791
that-that still lists you
as his emergency contact.

488
00:25:17,875 --> 00:25:20,000
- Yeah, Chris.
- Y-Yeah, Chr--

489
00:25:20,083 --> 00:25:22,708
I don't think I've ever been listed
as emergency contact, okay?

490
00:25:22,791 --> 00:25:24,500
But...

491
00:25:24,583 --> 00:25:26,416
Maya wins.

492
00:25:26,500 --> 00:25:28,541
And, uh, and she deserves it.

493
00:25:29,125 --> 00:25:31,833
And that is the greatest compliment
that I could give either of you guys.

494
00:25:31,916 --> 00:25:35,500
I mean, what-what-what
must it be like to...

495
00:25:35,583 --> 00:25:38,291
to know the-the secrets of the universe

496
00:25:38,375 --> 00:25:40,791
while the rest of us are just...

497
00:25:40,875 --> 00:25:42,541
stumbling around?

498
00:25:42,625 --> 00:25:43,666
You know?

499
00:25:43,750 --> 00:25:45,708
Looking for that kind of meaning.

500
00:25:45,791 --> 00:25:48,833
And you two are always so cool about it.

501
00:25:48,916 --> 00:25:50,250
Congratulations, you guys.

502
00:25:51,291 --> 00:25:54,250
Yeah, you know, you won the jackpot,
and I-I feel like I did, too.

503
00:25:57,833 --> 00:25:59,041
Dude, "secrets of the universe"?

504
00:26:08,375 --> 00:26:10,166
♪<i> When I'm with you, baby </i>♪

505
00:26:10,250 --> 00:26:12,000
♪<i> I go out of my head </i>♪

506
00:26:12,083 --> 00:26:16,333
♪<i> and I just can't get enough,</i>
<i>and I just can't get enough </i>♪

507
00:26:16,416 --> 00:26:18,500
♪<i> All the things you do to me</i>
<i>and everything you said...</i>

508
00:26:18,583 --> 00:26:19,833
I'm married!

509
00:26:21,708 --> 00:26:23,916
♪<i> I just can't get enough </i>♪

510
00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:26,666
<i>- </i>♪<i> We slip and slide as we fall in love </i>♪

511
00:26:26,750 --> 00:26:30,958
♪<i> and I just can't seem</i>
<i>to get enough of </i>♪♪

512
00:26:33,541 --> 00:26:35,916
Ah, it's so crazy we're married.

513
00:26:37,500 --> 00:26:39,000
Did you tell Jason?

514
00:26:39,083 --> 00:26:41,000
What?

515
00:26:41,083 --> 00:26:42,500
Like, before?

516
00:26:42,583 --> 00:26:43,916
No.

517
00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:45,791
No, I promised I wouldn't.

518
00:26:47,416 --> 00:26:48,500
He was really great.

519
00:26:48,583 --> 00:26:50,375
Yeah, he was.

520
00:26:52,708 --> 00:26:54,041
He's got soul.

521
00:26:54,125 --> 00:26:55,791
He's got the soul of a poet.

522
00:26:55,875 --> 00:26:56,875
It's great.

523
00:26:58,750 --> 00:27:00,125
Ah, I'm so hot.

524
00:27:01,166 --> 00:27:02,958
So hot.

525
00:27:06,166 --> 00:27:07,875
I got an idea.

526
00:27:07,958 --> 00:27:09,208
What?

527
00:27:10,416 --> 00:27:12,375
- Where we going?
- Come here.

528
00:27:14,541 --> 00:27:16,541
- This is my idea.
- Oh, really?

529
00:27:16,625 --> 00:27:18,125
Oh, my God. What was I thinking?

530
00:27:18,208 --> 00:27:20,125
This was a bad idea.

531
00:27:20,208 --> 00:27:21,375
Ah, it's great.

532
00:27:22,791 --> 00:27:24,458
This is the best thing we've ever done.

533
00:27:25,958 --> 00:27:26,958
The ice bath?

534
00:27:27,541 --> 00:27:29,041
No, the wedding, Maya.

535
00:27:29,125 --> 00:27:30,250
The wedding.

536
00:27:30,333 --> 00:27:32,250
♪<i> Just to save you </i>♪

537
00:27:32,333 --> 00:27:34,416
♪<i> then ready to go </i>♪

538
00:27:34,500 --> 00:27:36,416
♪<i> Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh </i>♪

539
00:27:36,500 --> 00:27:38,458
♪<i> God, please </i>♪

540
00:27:38,541 --> 00:27:39,958
♪<i> make it all go slow </i>♪

541
00:27:43,500 --> 00:27:47,875
♪<i> The bad beats, the radio </i>♪

542
00:27:48,875 --> 00:27:50,625
♪<i> Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh </i>♪

543
00:27:50,708 --> 00:27:52,708
♪<i> Blood brother </i>♪

544
00:27:52,791 --> 00:27:55,875
♪<i> it's over soon </i>♪

545
00:27:55,958 --> 00:27:57,541
♪<i> I'll always carry you...</i>

546
00:27:57,625 --> 00:28:00,500
Wait, wait! Not that one.
Not that one. Not that one.

547
00:28:00,583 --> 00:28:02,041
<i>Uh, Maya.</i>

548
00:28:02,125 --> 00:28:03,625
Potato or sweet potato?

549
00:28:03,708 --> 00:28:05,041
Sweet potato.

550
00:28:05,125 --> 00:28:07,083
Oh.

551
00:28:07,166 --> 00:28:08,750
Uh...

552
00:28:08,833 --> 00:28:11,375
Get the window.

553
00:28:16,833 --> 00:28:17,958
- It looks good.
- What?

554
00:28:18,041 --> 00:28:19,500
It looks good.

555
00:28:19,583 --> 00:28:21,083
- Oh, it looks fine.
- Yeah, it's crispy.

556
00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:25,708
♪<i> I'll meet you</i>
<i>in forever's parking lot...</i>

557
00:28:27,666 --> 00:28:29,000
Foul. Foul.

558
00:28:30,041 --> 00:28:31,833
♪<i> God, please </i>♪

559
00:28:31,916 --> 00:28:33,833
♪<i> make it all go slow </i>♪

560
00:28:36,833 --> 00:28:39,041
♪<i> Blood brother </i>♪

561
00:28:39,125 --> 00:28:42,166
♪<i> it's over soon </i>♪

562
00:28:42,250 --> 00:28:43,625
<i>- </i>♪<i> I'll always carry you </i>♪♪

563
00:28:43,708 --> 00:28:45,583
Sorry to interrupt your date.

564
00:28:45,666 --> 00:28:47,958
- Mm. We don't mind a little third wheel.
- Yeah.

565
00:28:48,041 --> 00:28:49,166
How'd you find us?

566
00:28:54,541 --> 00:28:57,333
You, uh... you think
this is gonna be a big thing?

567
00:28:57,416 --> 00:28:58,833
<i>...here in the US.</i>

568
00:28:58,916 --> 00:29:02,708
<i>America's 15th case comes</i>
<i>as infections skyrocket</i>

569
00:29:02,791 --> 00:29:04,750
<i>across mainland China and spread...</i>

570
00:29:07,333 --> 00:29:09,083
We'll get you another blanket, okay?

571
00:29:12,583 --> 00:29:14,041
Kali, any room in the ICU?

572
00:29:14,125 --> 00:29:16,375
- How's bed 19?
- No. And bad.

573
00:29:32,916 --> 00:29:34,500
Mr. Alvarez.

574
00:29:34,583 --> 00:29:38,416
We're still waiting on a room, but can I
get you a warm blanket while we wait?

575
00:29:40,916 --> 00:29:43,750
One of the nurses showed me the review
for your restaurant in the <i>Globe.</i>

576
00:29:43,833 --> 00:29:45,291
It looks amazing.

577
00:29:45,375 --> 00:29:46,416
I can't wait to bring my husband.

578
00:29:46,500 --> 00:29:47,583
He's gonna order half the menu.

579
00:29:47,666 --> 00:29:49,625
I'm gonna be right back
with your blanket, okay?

580
00:30:09,583 --> 00:30:10,958
Hey, sweetie.

581
00:30:11,041 --> 00:30:13,458
Hey, babe. Be off in a second.

582
00:30:15,541 --> 00:30:17,250
Next, I think we'll get into

583
00:30:17,333 --> 00:30:20,416
the Attention Restoration Theory
using sound.

584
00:30:20,500 --> 00:30:22,458
I know that, um...

585
00:30:22,541 --> 00:30:24,875
<i>Sorry,</i>
<i>I'll go on mute.</i>

586
00:30:24,958 --> 00:30:27,083
<i>Can you elaborate on</i>

587
00:30:27,166 --> 00:30:31,000
<i>the relationship between auditory stimuli</i>
<i>and neurodivergence?</i>

588
00:30:31,083 --> 00:30:32,333
- Yeah. Actually...
<i>-</i>

589
00:30:38,041 --> 00:30:39,416
Hey.

590
00:30:40,875 --> 00:30:42,708
- Thank you.
- Yeah.

591
00:30:44,500 --> 00:30:46,416
How was today?

592
00:30:47,041 --> 00:30:49,250
They turned the hockey rink into a morgue.

593
00:30:51,833 --> 00:30:54,125
Well, uh...

594
00:30:54,208 --> 00:30:56,250
well, at least tomorrow you have...

595
00:30:56,333 --> 00:30:58,041
- Mm-mm.
- What?

596
00:30:59,500 --> 00:31:00,875
I have to go in.

597
00:31:00,958 --> 00:31:02,791
They're short-staffed. Everybody's sick.

598
00:31:04,375 --> 00:31:06,541
I think you need to go stay at your mom's.

599
00:31:07,625 --> 00:31:08,666
No.

600
00:31:09,708 --> 00:31:11,375
I'm staying here with you.

601
00:31:11,458 --> 00:31:12,875
Uh, take your time.

602
00:31:12,958 --> 00:31:15,250
I'm starting dinner.

603
00:31:32,083 --> 00:31:33,625
We should cross.

604
00:31:45,250 --> 00:31:46,458
Kali.

605
00:31:47,458 --> 00:31:48,708
We got this.

606
00:31:51,291 --> 00:31:53,625
- <i>Code blue.</i>
- Coding. I need paddles.

607
00:31:53,708 --> 00:31:55,375
- Bed 15, Alvarez.
- <i>Code blue.</i>

608
00:31:55,458 --> 00:31:57,333
- Go, go, go!
- Shock.

609
00:31:58,875 --> 00:31:59,875
Starting compressions.

610
00:31:59,958 --> 00:32:01,041
Reset.

611
00:32:01,125 --> 00:32:02,500
Charge to 300.

612
00:32:02,583 --> 00:32:03,958
Clear.

613
00:32:04,041 --> 00:32:05,166
Shock.

614
00:32:05,250 --> 00:32:08,041
♪<i> </i>♪

615
00:32:27,416 --> 00:32:29,083
Hey.

616
00:32:32,875 --> 00:32:33,916
Bad one?

617
00:32:37,791 --> 00:32:39,541
That's really sweet.

618
00:32:54,791 --> 00:32:57,166
When all this is over,
I just want to run away.

619
00:32:57,250 --> 00:33:00,041
Can I come with you?

620
00:33:00,125 --> 00:33:01,208
Where you want to go?

621
00:33:01,291 --> 00:33:03,000
I want to go all the places
we talked about

622
00:33:03,083 --> 00:33:04,750
- but we haven't actually been.
- Okay, so Japan.

623
00:33:04,833 --> 00:33:06,583
You want to go there. I know that.

624
00:33:06,666 --> 00:33:08,125
- Yeah.
- Where else?

625
00:33:08,208 --> 00:33:10,583
- Portugal.
- Cool.

626
00:33:10,666 --> 00:33:11,708
Spain.

627
00:33:11,791 --> 00:33:14,208
Hold on. I'm writing this down.

628
00:33:19,625 --> 00:33:22,500
Uh, so Japan's on there.

629
00:33:22,583 --> 00:33:23,708
What was the other-- Spain.

630
00:33:24,291 --> 00:33:26,083
Portugal.

631
00:33:26,166 --> 00:33:28,833
The whole I-Iberian Peninsula.

632
00:33:28,916 --> 00:33:30,375
What else?

633
00:33:30,458 --> 00:33:35,083
I've always wanted to do one of those,
um, swamp tour things.

634
00:33:35,166 --> 00:33:36,916
You serious?

635
00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:38,666
- What?
- Okay.

636
00:33:39,375 --> 00:33:41,458
"Swamp tour things." Great.

637
00:33:43,250 --> 00:33:44,875
What if we really did?

638
00:33:44,958 --> 00:33:47,666
I mean, what if I took leave
for a while and...

639
00:33:49,208 --> 00:33:50,958
- ...we traveled?
- Really?

640
00:33:51,541 --> 00:33:52,541
Yeah.

641
00:33:53,541 --> 00:33:54,750
Okay.

642
00:33:56,041 --> 00:33:57,041
Okay, yeah.

643
00:33:57,125 --> 00:33:58,166
Hell yeah.

644
00:33:58,250 --> 00:33:59,875
I'll apply for a sabbatical.

645
00:33:59,958 --> 00:34:03,291
So, we travel the world,
you'll wrestle some alligators

646
00:34:03,375 --> 00:34:05,291
in the swamps.

647
00:34:08,125 --> 00:34:09,583
And then what? What do you want to do?

648
00:34:09,666 --> 00:34:11,291
Come home and...?

649
00:34:14,291 --> 00:34:16,666
What? I didn't say anything.

650
00:34:19,041 --> 00:34:21,041
- I can hear you thinking.
- Can you?

651
00:34:23,791 --> 00:34:24,875
Uh, look, I...

652
00:34:27,125 --> 00:34:28,750
I want what you want.

653
00:34:29,875 --> 00:34:31,791
Okay? And we're already a family.

654
00:34:32,875 --> 00:34:33,875
And I love it.

655
00:34:35,875 --> 00:34:37,916
But I think we'd be really good at it.

656
00:34:38,875 --> 00:34:40,291
I do.

657
00:34:40,375 --> 00:34:42,041
And I think we'd have a lot of fun.

658
00:34:46,833 --> 00:34:50,416
It's always scared me so much
just to even...

659
00:34:50,500 --> 00:34:51,875
think about.

660
00:34:54,083 --> 00:34:55,916
But with you, I can really picture it.

661
00:34:56,000 --> 00:34:58,083
- Really?
- Yeah.

662
00:34:59,583 --> 00:35:00,875
Which is also scary.

663
00:35:00,958 --> 00:35:02,708
Yeah?

664
00:35:02,791 --> 00:35:03,791
I mean, yeah.

665
00:35:06,375 --> 00:35:08,083
Yeah.

666
00:35:11,541 --> 00:35:13,500
I'm gonna turn the music up, okay?

667
00:35:15,250 --> 00:35:16,708
Let me up.

668
00:35:45,708 --> 00:35:47,708
I know, Ruth. I feel terrible.

669
00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:51,958
Yes. I'm well aware.

670
00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:57,375
No, I'm positive, too, so I can't go in.

671
00:35:57,458 --> 00:35:59,541
I'll be with him.

672
00:35:59,625 --> 00:36:01,916
Don't worry. He'll be okay.

673
00:36:06,125 --> 00:36:08,166
<i>Now it hurts.</i>

674
00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:33,375
<i>Jason dropped this off for you.</i>

675
00:36:34,166 --> 00:36:38,208
He said he made it, but it tastes
suspiciously like Boston Market.

676
00:36:43,416 --> 00:36:44,500
Shit.

677
00:36:44,583 --> 00:36:46,583
♪<i> </i>♪

678
00:37:00,416 --> 00:37:01,708
Sweetie.

679
00:37:01,791 --> 00:37:03,458
Yeah. Hey.

680
00:37:04,958 --> 00:37:07,541
Your O2's not great,
and you're short of breath.

681
00:37:07,625 --> 00:37:09,166
At 90, we're going in.

682
00:37:09,250 --> 00:37:11,208
No, they're, uh...

683
00:37:14,041 --> 00:37:15,958
They're not gonna let you
in there with me.

684
00:37:17,750 --> 00:37:19,791
We got to stay here at home.

685
00:37:21,458 --> 00:37:23,583
<i>How bad is it over there?</i>

686
00:37:23,666 --> 00:37:25,500
<i>Bring him in</i>
<i>if you absolutely have to,</i>

687
00:37:25,583 --> 00:37:27,250
<i>but we're still short on beds.</i>

688
00:37:27,333 --> 00:37:28,458
<i>- The hallway's overflowing.</i>

689
00:37:28,541 --> 00:37:29,791
<i>It's not good.</i>

690
00:37:32,416 --> 00:37:34,583
Sweetie, I'm gonna prop
your head up a little bit.

691
00:37:53,833 --> 00:37:55,916
- It's 90.
- Huh? What?

692
00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:57,583
It's 90. We're going.

693
00:37:57,666 --> 00:37:58,916
Oh, no.

694
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:00,458
I'm bringing you to the hospital, sweetie.

695
00:38:00,541 --> 00:38:01,666
No.

696
00:38:02,250 --> 00:38:04,458
I work at Boston General.
Can I please ride with him?

697
00:38:04,541 --> 00:38:05,958
Then you know
we can't take you.

698
00:38:06,041 --> 00:38:07,291
- You noted that he has asthma?
- We did.

699
00:38:07,375 --> 00:38:08,791
Will you please tell them
to call me the second

700
00:38:08,875 --> 00:38:10,583
that he is triaged, please?

701
00:38:10,666 --> 00:38:11,916
Sweetheart, I'll be right there, okay?

702
00:38:12,000 --> 00:38:13,166
I'm right behind you!

703
00:38:14,916 --> 00:38:16,125
<i>You have to get me in.</i>

704
00:38:16,208 --> 00:38:17,291
<i>I will do</i>
<i>what I can, Maya,</i>

705
00:38:17,375 --> 00:38:18,458
<i>but you know how strict they're being.</i>

706
00:38:18,541 --> 00:38:19,833
<i>But don't worry. I'm on radio with them.</i>

707
00:38:19,916 --> 00:38:20,916
<i>I'm gonna be down here when he arrives.</i>

708
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:22,333
What's his O2 sat? He has asthma.

709
00:38:22,416 --> 00:38:24,333
He has to be first priority for a bed.

710
00:38:24,416 --> 00:38:25,833
<i>Oh. Oh, shit, Maya. He just syncopized.</i>

711
00:38:25,916 --> 00:38:26,916
<i>I got to go.</i>

712
00:38:34,875 --> 00:38:36,625
Kali, I've tried everything,
and they're not letting me in.

713
00:38:36,708 --> 00:38:38,125
Will you please come down here
and get me inside?

714
00:38:38,208 --> 00:38:40,416
<i>Maya, stop.</i>

715
00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:42,750
<i>I'm putting you on FaceTime, okay?</i>

716
00:38:42,833 --> 00:38:43,958
What?

717
00:38:47,208 --> 00:38:49,375
- What?
<i>- Look, we had to intubate him,</i>

718
00:38:49,458 --> 00:38:52,583
<i>and h-he's not doing well on the tube.</i>

719
00:38:52,666 --> 00:38:54,666
- Well, do something else.
<i>- I'm really sorry, Maya.</i>

720
00:38:54,750 --> 00:38:56,166
<i>We're trying everything.</i>

721
00:38:56,250 --> 00:38:58,625
<i>Whatever you need to say,</i>
<i>you need to say it now, okay?</i>

722
00:39:03,541 --> 00:39:04,583
Hi.

723
00:39:04,666 --> 00:39:06,208
Honey, honey, honey, honey, honey, honey.

724
00:39:06,291 --> 00:39:07,291
I'm right here.

725
00:39:07,375 --> 00:39:09,333
Sweetie, I'm right here with you, okay?

726
00:39:09,416 --> 00:39:10,541
I'm right here.

727
00:39:10,625 --> 00:39:12,875
You're okay. You're okay, okay?

728
00:39:12,958 --> 00:39:14,125
Just stay strong.

729
00:39:14,208 --> 00:39:15,458
You're so strong.

730
00:39:15,541 --> 00:39:17,541
I'm right here. You're so strong.

731
00:39:17,625 --> 00:39:19,875
You're so strong.
You're gonna be just fine.

732
00:39:19,958 --> 00:39:21,791
Just stay with me.

733
00:39:21,875 --> 00:39:23,833
Honey, we're gonna have babies.

734
00:39:23,916 --> 00:39:25,458
We're gonna have babies.
We're gonna have a family.

735
00:39:25,541 --> 00:39:26,750
We're gonna grow old together.

736
00:39:26,833 --> 00:39:28,541
We're gonna do
so many wonderful things, okay?

737
00:39:28,625 --> 00:39:29,666
You just stay right here with me.

738
00:39:29,750 --> 00:39:30,750
<i>Coding.</i>

739
00:39:30,833 --> 00:39:31,875
You just stay right here.

740
00:39:31,958 --> 00:39:33,125
<i>Put the bed down!</i>

741
00:39:34,291 --> 00:39:35,291
<i>Prepare to shock.</i>

742
00:39:35,375 --> 00:39:36,875
Kali?

743
00:39:36,958 --> 00:39:37,958
- <i>Charging.</i>
- Kali?

744
00:39:38,041 --> 00:39:39,041
- <i>Come on, Charlie.</i>
- <i>Clear.</i>

745
00:39:41,041 --> 00:39:42,458
<i>Shock.</i>

746
00:39:42,541 --> 00:39:43,625
Kali, Kali, Kali!

747
00:39:43,708 --> 00:39:45,000
<i>No pulse.</i>

748
00:39:45,083 --> 00:39:46,875
<i>Resetting.</i>

749
00:39:46,958 --> 00:39:48,166
<i>- Charging.</i>

750
00:39:48,250 --> 00:39:50,083
<i>Come on, Charlie. Come on.</i>

751
00:39:50,166 --> 00:39:51,500
<i>Clear.</i>

752
00:39:51,583 --> 00:39:52,791
<i>Shock.</i>

753
00:40:23,500 --> 00:40:25,583
<i>Hi, Maya.</i>
<i>How's he doing?</i>

754
00:40:28,791 --> 00:40:30,541
<i>Sorry, the TV is loud.</i>

755
00:40:30,625 --> 00:40:31,750
<i>Where's the clicker?</i>

756
00:40:31,833 --> 00:40:33,041
<i>Kerry.</i>

757
00:40:34,458 --> 00:40:36,458
<i>Hey. Hi.</i>

758
00:40:36,541 --> 00:40:37,750
<i>- How's he doing?</i>

759
00:41:26,416 --> 00:41:28,041
Maya!

760
00:41:30,583 --> 00:41:32,916
Maya, it's Ruth! Let me up!

761
00:41:36,125 --> 00:41:38,500
Maya.

762
00:41:38,583 --> 00:41:40,750
They won't let me into the hospital.

763
00:41:40,833 --> 00:41:42,541
Maya, I need your help.

764
00:41:44,708 --> 00:41:46,458
They won't let me into the...

765
00:41:46,541 --> 00:41:48,041
Maya!

766
00:41:50,416 --> 00:41:52,500
<i>- It's Ruth!</i>

767
00:43:13,291 --> 00:43:15,125
♪<i> </i>♪

768
00:43:29,666 --> 00:43:31,291
Your surgery was Tuesday?

769
00:43:31,375 --> 00:43:33,000
<i>Yes, uh,</i>
<i>Tuesday morning.</i>

770
00:43:33,083 --> 00:43:34,500
<i>I tried my best to stay off of it,</i>

771
00:43:34,583 --> 00:43:37,125
<i>but if I have to go up</i>
<i>and use the bathroom,</i>

772
00:43:37,208 --> 00:43:39,875
<i>uh, I can't put any weight</i>
<i>down on it whatsoever.</i>

773
00:43:39,958 --> 00:43:41,875
Did you finish your round of antibiotics?

774
00:43:46,458 --> 00:43:48,416
Excuse me.
Can I get another glass of wine?

775
00:43:49,833 --> 00:43:51,916
Hey, are you American?

776
00:43:53,333 --> 00:43:54,458
Us, too.

777
00:43:54,541 --> 00:43:56,458
We're here for a wedding, actually.

778
00:43:56,541 --> 00:43:57,625
Are you here on, like, vacation?

779
00:43:57,708 --> 00:43:58,708
No.

780
00:44:01,958 --> 00:44:03,958
Uh, s-so you live here?

781
00:44:07,875 --> 00:44:09,166
Sort of.

782
00:44:09,250 --> 00:44:11,291
Well, you should join us.

783
00:44:11,375 --> 00:44:13,041
Next round's on me.

784
00:44:13,125 --> 00:44:14,375
Yeah, I think about it.

785
00:44:14,458 --> 00:44:15,833
Like, I know the dance,

786
00:44:15,916 --> 00:44:18,625
I could do the dance now,
but whether it would--

787
00:44:21,875 --> 00:44:23,291
Are you okay?

788
00:44:23,375 --> 00:44:25,083
You still want to...?

789
00:44:25,166 --> 00:44:27,000
Oh, uh...

790
00:44:27,083 --> 00:44:29,208
uh, yeah, I'm good.

791
00:44:36,583 --> 00:44:38,125
<i>What color is your mucus?</i>

792
00:44:38,208 --> 00:44:39,708
<i> Maybe beige.</i>
<i>I don't know.</i>

793
00:44:39,791 --> 00:44:43,375
<i>It's just really thick and not nice.</i>

794
00:44:44,708 --> 00:44:46,708
<i>I used to rehab antiques.</i>

795
00:44:46,791 --> 00:44:47,791
<i>Um...</i>

796
00:44:48,583 --> 00:44:49,958
...like, fix things up.

797
00:44:52,541 --> 00:44:54,000
I-I don't know.

798
00:44:54,083 --> 00:44:56,791
I really don't,
I don't want stuff anymore.

799
00:44:56,875 --> 00:44:59,958
<i>What about an entirely new activity?</i>

800
00:45:00,041 --> 00:45:02,041
<i>Something you've never tried before.</i>

801
00:45:03,125 --> 00:45:05,666
<i>And not connected to Charlie</i>

802
00:45:05,750 --> 00:45:08,458
<i>or your past interests.</i>

803
00:45:08,541 --> 00:45:10,166
<i>It's okay if you don't feel ready.</i>

804
00:45:10,250 --> 00:45:14,291
<i>I mean, sometimes we need action</i>
<i>to come before motivation.</i>

805
00:45:15,791 --> 00:45:20,083
<i> </i>♪<i> Happy birthday to you </i>♪

806
00:45:20,166 --> 00:45:23,583
<i>- </i>♪<i> Happy birthday to you </i>♪

807
00:45:23,666 --> 00:45:24,958
- Come on.
- Hey!

808
00:45:25,041 --> 00:45:29,166
♪<i> Happy birthday, dear Fábio </i>♪♪

809
00:45:29,250 --> 00:45:30,833
Oh, oh! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

810
00:45:33,541 --> 00:45:34,583
Ice, ice!

811
00:45:34,666 --> 00:45:36,458
- Get them some ice.
- Ice.

812
00:45:36,541 --> 00:45:37,750
We have butter here. Come on.

813
00:45:37,833 --> 00:45:38,833
Give me your hand, man.
Give me your hand.

814
00:45:40,125 --> 00:45:41,541
Please don't put butter on that burn.

815
00:45:43,000 --> 00:45:45,916
Just gonna trap the heat in
and get infected.

816
00:45:47,125 --> 00:45:48,583
I'm a nurse.

817
00:45:49,958 --> 00:45:50,958
<i>What do you reckon?</i>

818
00:45:53,250 --> 00:45:54,541
- It looks good.
- Yeah?

819
00:45:54,625 --> 00:45:55,625
Blistering normally.

820
00:45:55,708 --> 00:45:57,416
Leave it like that for 15 minutes,

821
00:45:57,500 --> 00:45:59,625
- and you'll be good.
- Fifteen minutes?

822
00:45:59,708 --> 00:46:01,166
Get comfortable.

823
00:46:01,875 --> 00:46:03,125
What's the little bird?

824
00:46:03,208 --> 00:46:04,916
Oh, um, that's for my daughter.

825
00:46:05,000 --> 00:46:07,083
It's a character from her favorite book.

826
00:46:07,166 --> 00:46:08,375
She's five.

827
00:46:10,708 --> 00:46:13,875
So, like, what do you... what do you do?

828
00:46:13,958 --> 00:46:15,208
You... you nurse.

829
00:46:15,291 --> 00:46:17,958
You work, uh, work in a hospital or...?

830
00:46:18,958 --> 00:46:20,500
I used to.

831
00:46:20,583 --> 00:46:22,500
Oh, cool.

832
00:46:22,583 --> 00:46:24,750
- That's nice.
- Million years ago.

833
00:46:24,833 --> 00:46:26,416
- Yeah, yeah.
- Okay.

834
00:46:27,041 --> 00:46:28,541
You're not, you're not staying?

835
00:46:31,083 --> 00:46:32,375
I've got a drink to finish.

836
00:46:32,458 --> 00:46:33,500
Let me get you a fresh one.

837
00:46:33,583 --> 00:46:35,375
I'll take you out for a fresh drink.

838
00:46:35,458 --> 00:46:38,625
In about... 13 minutes.

839
00:46:41,958 --> 00:46:43,333
You don't like fresh drinks?

840
00:46:44,791 --> 00:46:46,666
- What about your friends?
- They won't care.

841
00:46:46,750 --> 00:46:48,458
I've been with them all day.

842
00:46:51,333 --> 00:46:53,125
- I'm not really a good time.
- I am.

843
00:46:55,791 --> 00:46:58,416
And you look like you need a distraction.

844
00:47:01,583 --> 00:47:05,375
So, um, when you're not doing telehealth

845
00:47:05,458 --> 00:47:07,875
and, um, rescuing people at bars...?

846
00:47:09,166 --> 00:47:11,458
I wander around, and I, uh...

847
00:47:12,833 --> 00:47:14,791
...I eat and I drink.

848
00:47:15,500 --> 00:47:17,000
Probably too much of both.

849
00:47:17,083 --> 00:47:19,416
So that's what brought you to Europe?

850
00:47:19,500 --> 00:47:21,083
Solitary hedonism?

851
00:47:22,708 --> 00:47:23,708
Distraction.

852
00:47:23,791 --> 00:47:24,916
<i>In your words.</i>

853
00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:26,333
We should go in here.

854
00:47:26,416 --> 00:47:27,958
I don't really dance anymore.

855
00:47:28,041 --> 00:47:29,416
What are you talking about?

856
00:47:29,500 --> 00:47:30,750
Let's go.

857
00:47:54,791 --> 00:47:57,041
<i>My husband died three years ago.</i>

858
00:47:58,250 --> 00:47:59,708
<i>I'm so sorry.</i>

859
00:48:01,250 --> 00:48:02,416
<i>Thanks.</i>

860
00:48:05,208 --> 00:48:07,333
It's amazing how much you can
talk about your dead husband

861
00:48:07,416 --> 00:48:09,208
and people still want to sleep with you.

862
00:48:13,250 --> 00:48:14,250
I don't mean you.

863
00:48:14,333 --> 00:48:15,375
- I just mean generally.
- Oh.

864
00:48:15,458 --> 00:48:17,083
I know, I know, I know. That's, um...

865
00:48:17,791 --> 00:48:20,000
That's a good observation, to be fair.

866
00:48:20,083 --> 00:48:21,541
- So, do you like mustard?
- Yeah.

867
00:48:21,625 --> 00:48:23,833
Do you like mustard
or do you love mustard?

868
00:48:23,916 --> 00:48:26,250
- I love mustard.
- We'll see.

869
00:48:26,333 --> 00:48:27,666
Say when.

870
00:48:29,875 --> 00:48:31,000
When.

871
00:48:31,083 --> 00:48:32,875
Oh, you really like mustard.

872
00:48:32,958 --> 00:48:34,500
You really like mustard.

873
00:48:34,583 --> 00:48:36,666
So, what you, um, what you gonna do

874
00:48:36,750 --> 00:48:39,500
once you finished
distracting yourself traveling?

875
00:48:40,666 --> 00:48:42,875
I don't know. Kill myself?

876
00:48:44,750 --> 00:48:46,875
My brother killed himself.

877
00:48:48,166 --> 00:48:49,833
Shit.

878
00:48:49,916 --> 00:48:51,541
You didn't know, did you?

879
00:48:53,791 --> 00:48:56,166
You didn't know.

880
00:48:56,250 --> 00:48:59,083
Why you got that face on?

881
00:48:59,166 --> 00:49:00,416
You're fine.

882
00:49:01,916 --> 00:49:03,083
What was his name?

883
00:49:03,166 --> 00:49:05,875
Leon. Lee.

884
00:49:06,666 --> 00:49:08,041
Yeah, that's my guy.

885
00:49:09,083 --> 00:49:10,500
And thank you for asking as well.

886
00:49:10,583 --> 00:49:11,958
A lot of people, they just kind of...

887
00:49:13,875 --> 00:49:15,166
You know.

888
00:49:18,375 --> 00:49:20,291
- My husband was Charlie.
- Mm?

889
00:49:20,375 --> 00:49:21,875
- My husband was Charlie.
- Charlie.

890
00:49:22,500 --> 00:49:23,875
Leon and Charlie.

891
00:49:28,416 --> 00:49:31,375
And then you get, like... I don't know.

892
00:49:31,458 --> 00:49:33,708
People just say the dumbest shit, like,

893
00:49:33,791 --> 00:49:35,958
"Oh, you know, he's...

894
00:49:38,166 --> 00:49:40,666
...he's in a better place now, Felix."

895
00:49:40,750 --> 00:49:43,125
Eh, or, like...

896
00:49:43,208 --> 00:49:46,916
you know, "He's alive,
but he's alive in you now."

897
00:49:47,000 --> 00:49:49,291
And I'm like, "Bro, what?"

898
00:49:49,375 --> 00:49:52,833
Like, what... what does that even...

899
00:49:52,916 --> 00:49:54,666
what does that even mean?

900
00:49:54,750 --> 00:49:57,208
I know it, I know it's,
I know it's love and--

901
00:49:57,291 --> 00:50:00,208
But, like, that's not helping me.

902
00:50:01,333 --> 00:50:02,750
At all.

903
00:50:19,833 --> 00:50:21,875
Sometimes I wish I could just forget.

904
00:50:26,625 --> 00:50:28,000
But I can't.

905
00:50:31,291 --> 00:50:33,000
I remember everything.

906
00:50:36,250 --> 00:50:40,000
I remember the way
that he... chewed his pens.

907
00:50:40,833 --> 00:50:44,166
How he made friends everywhere we went.

908
00:50:44,250 --> 00:50:49,000
He was just present and curious and...

909
00:50:56,125 --> 00:50:57,500
I don't know.

910
00:51:01,250 --> 00:51:03,208
I'm not special.

911
00:51:04,791 --> 00:51:08,000
I just met the person
that makes everything magical

912
00:51:08,083 --> 00:51:10,416
and interesting and...

913
00:51:14,250 --> 00:51:16,625
I-I-I got the thing.

914
00:51:16,708 --> 00:51:18,708
I got the thing that everyone wants.

915
00:51:19,791 --> 00:51:22,041
You know, I... I won the lottery.

916
00:51:22,125 --> 00:51:23,333
I...

917
00:51:31,625 --> 00:51:33,083
And then...

918
00:51:50,125 --> 00:51:52,916
Sorry. I don't know what I'm...

919
00:51:53,000 --> 00:51:54,375
Don't be.

920
00:52:55,041 --> 00:52:57,000
Take care of that burn.

921
00:54:15,375 --> 00:54:17,833
<i>Meo português no é bono.</i>

922
00:54:17,916 --> 00:54:19,166
Don't worry.

923
00:54:19,250 --> 00:54:20,333
You just follow me.

924
00:54:44,708 --> 00:54:46,708
♪<i> </i>♪

925
00:54:49,625 --> 00:54:51,166
Sorry.

926
00:54:53,166 --> 00:54:56,208
One, two. One, two.

927
00:55:10,000 --> 00:55:11,833
I used to hate fado.

928
00:55:12,958 --> 00:55:14,791
How come?

929
00:55:14,875 --> 00:55:16,791
The Salazar regime.

930
00:55:16,875 --> 00:55:18,500
They took it. They use it.

931
00:55:18,583 --> 00:55:22,208
So it reminded me of that time.

932
00:55:22,291 --> 00:55:24,208
But these young, beautiful people,

933
00:55:24,291 --> 00:55:26,750
they make it new again.

934
00:55:27,791 --> 00:55:30,166
So now, uh, I think I like it.

935
00:55:32,041 --> 00:55:33,166
And you, too.

936
00:55:33,250 --> 00:55:35,583
So young and beautiful.

937
00:55:37,208 --> 00:55:38,833
I don't feel very young.

938
00:55:38,916 --> 00:55:40,291
Don't say that.

939
00:55:41,833 --> 00:55:44,291
I don't like you
when you say those things.

940
00:55:44,375 --> 00:55:46,291
Please.

941
00:55:47,541 --> 00:55:49,791
I mean, I-I don't feel...

942
00:55:49,875 --> 00:55:52,333
I don't feel very young inside.

943
00:55:53,041 --> 00:55:55,291
Don't choose to be unhappy.

944
00:55:56,333 --> 00:55:59,500
It's lazy, and it's harder.

945
00:56:05,083 --> 00:56:06,458
Okay.

946
00:56:06,541 --> 00:56:08,375
<i>Valentona.</i>

947
00:56:08,458 --> 00:56:09,833
Understand?

948
00:56:09,916 --> 00:56:11,208
I think so.

949
00:56:33,833 --> 00:56:35,833
♪<i> </i>♪

950
00:57:03,833 --> 00:57:05,291
I'm going to the Algarve.

951
00:57:05,375 --> 00:57:08,416
It's a site visit for work.

952
00:57:08,500 --> 00:57:10,625
And then I'm going back to London.

953
00:57:10,708 --> 00:57:12,000
Um...

954
00:57:13,125 --> 00:57:17,125
I was just wondering
if you wanted to, um...

955
00:57:17,208 --> 00:57:20,291
join me at the beach before I go back.

956
00:57:21,291 --> 00:57:23,125
You don't have to say anything.

957
00:57:23,208 --> 00:57:27,708
Um, you know, you can,
you can come or, um,

958
00:57:27,791 --> 00:57:30,208
obviously, you can not come.

959
00:57:32,083 --> 00:57:33,083
Yeah.

960
00:57:33,166 --> 00:57:36,750
But, um, yeah, I leave 12:00 tomorrow.

961
00:57:36,833 --> 00:57:38,208
On the train.

962
00:57:42,625 --> 00:57:44,666
Um... yeah.

963
00:57:46,541 --> 00:57:47,750
Bye.

964
00:58:10,750 --> 00:58:12,750
♪<i> </i>♪

965
00:58:25,458 --> 00:58:26,666
Henrique. Hello, mate.

966
00:58:26,750 --> 00:58:29,541
Um, it's Felix again.

967
00:58:29,625 --> 00:58:31,000
Uh, we're locked out.

968
00:58:31,083 --> 00:58:33,458
Give us a call back as soon as you can.
My phone's about to die.

969
00:58:33,541 --> 00:58:38,083
♪<i> Watching cityscapes turn to dust </i>♪

970
00:58:41,000 --> 00:58:44,083
♪<i> Filming helicopters crashing </i>♪

971
00:58:44,166 --> 00:58:47,333
♪<i> in the ocean from way above </i>♪

972
00:58:47,416 --> 00:58:49,833
Me and Leon used to do this all the time

973
00:58:49,916 --> 00:58:51,791
in Brighton as kids.

974
00:58:51,875 --> 00:58:54,375
♪<i> Got the music in you, baby </i>♪

975
00:58:54,458 --> 00:58:56,958
♪<i> Tell me why </i>♪

976
00:58:57,041 --> 00:58:59,458
♪<i> Got the music in you, baby </i>♪

977
00:58:59,541 --> 00:59:02,000
♪<i> Tell me why </i>♪

978
00:59:02,083 --> 00:59:04,791
♪<i> You've been locked in here forever </i>♪

979
00:59:04,875 --> 00:59:08,291
♪<i> and you just can't say goodbye </i>♪

980
00:59:13,041 --> 00:59:16,083
♪<i> Kisses on the foreheads of the lovers </i>♪

981
00:59:16,166 --> 00:59:19,083
{\an8}♪<i> wrapped in your arms </i>♪

982
00:59:22,500 --> 00:59:26,541
♪<i> You've been hiding them</i>
<i>in hollowed-out pianos </i>♪

983
00:59:26,625 --> 00:59:29,500
♪<i> left in the dark </i>♪

984
00:59:33,041 --> 00:59:35,666
♪<i> Got the music in you, baby </i>♪

985
00:59:35,750 --> 00:59:38,125
♪<i> Tell me why </i>♪

986
00:59:38,208 --> 00:59:40,416
♪<i> Got the music in you, baby </i>♪

987
00:59:40,500 --> 00:59:43,166
♪<i> Tell me why </i>♪

988
00:59:43,250 --> 00:59:45,666
{\an8}♪<i> You've been locked in here forever </i>♪

989
00:59:45,750 --> 00:59:49,375
{\an8}♪<i> and you just can't say goodbye </i>♪

990
00:59:54,291 --> 00:59:56,291
♪<i> </i>♪

991
01:00:08,083 --> 01:00:10,041
♪<i> Oh </i>♪

992
01:00:11,083 --> 01:00:15,375
♪<i> When you're all alone </i>♪

993
01:00:16,208 --> 01:00:19,583
♪<i> I will reach for you </i>♪

994
01:00:21,041 --> 01:00:22,791
♪<i> When you're feeling low </i>♪

995
01:00:22,875 --> 01:00:26,625
So we've been working on this site
for the past two years.

996
01:00:26,708 --> 01:00:28,833
♪<i> I will be there, too </i>♪♪

997
01:00:28,916 --> 01:00:31,041
<i>- Bom dia.</i>
<i>- Bom dia.</i>

998
01:00:31,125 --> 01:00:33,125
♪<i> </i>♪

999
01:00:48,208 --> 01:00:50,375
- Wow.
- Goûter.

1000
01:00:51,375 --> 01:00:53,416
That's, um, that's what Noelle calls it.

1001
01:00:53,500 --> 01:00:57,416
It's a snack French kids eat after school.

1002
01:00:57,500 --> 01:00:59,041
What does "goûter" mean?

1003
01:00:59,125 --> 01:01:02,166
Um, "chocolate sandwich"?

1004
01:01:02,250 --> 01:01:03,416
"Chocolate baguette"?

1005
01:01:03,500 --> 01:01:04,666
I don't know.

1006
01:01:04,750 --> 01:01:06,791
I just know that that's what she likes.

1007
01:01:06,875 --> 01:01:08,375
I can tell you like being a dad.

1008
01:01:08,458 --> 01:01:10,875
Yeah, I do.

1009
01:01:11,625 --> 01:01:13,875
Her mum and I have a...
we have a good setup.

1010
01:01:13,958 --> 01:01:15,125
How'd you two meet?

1011
01:01:15,208 --> 01:01:16,375
Um, art school.

1012
01:01:16,458 --> 01:01:17,708
And I was awful.

1013
01:01:17,791 --> 01:01:19,916
But, like, not like regular awful.

1014
01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,083
I was really, really bad.

1015
01:01:22,166 --> 01:01:25,125
And she was this...

1016
01:01:25,208 --> 01:01:29,125
ultra-gifted, talented student
who, like, went on

1017
01:01:29,208 --> 01:01:31,083
to open her own firm in London.

1018
01:01:31,166 --> 01:01:33,041
And that's where I'm at
when I'm not working away.

1019
01:01:33,125 --> 01:01:34,458
London boy.

1020
01:01:35,625 --> 01:01:38,750
Did you two ever talk about kids or...

1021
01:01:38,833 --> 01:01:40,875
is that not something you...?

1022
01:01:40,958 --> 01:01:42,833
- We did. Yeah.
- Yeah?

1023
01:01:46,416 --> 01:01:48,500
Now I kind of wish that...

1024
01:01:50,083 --> 01:01:51,083
Yeah.

1025
01:01:53,125 --> 01:01:54,875
Have a piece of him left, you know?

1026
01:02:01,416 --> 01:02:05,500
It's funny, I used to think
it was selfish to have kids.

1027
01:02:06,958 --> 01:02:08,166
But...

1028
01:02:10,291 --> 01:02:12,083
...now I think it's some kind of hope.

1029
01:02:12,166 --> 01:02:13,458
Yeah.

1030
01:02:13,541 --> 01:02:15,791
Noelle was, um, well, she was unplanned,

1031
01:02:15,875 --> 01:02:21,000
so I never really had to...

1032
01:02:21,083 --> 01:02:23,375
like, tangle with that, but...

1033
01:02:23,458 --> 01:02:24,625
she is a hope.

1034
01:02:24,708 --> 01:02:25,791
It's true.

1035
01:02:45,708 --> 01:02:48,541
<i>I feel like I'm living again,</i>

1036
01:02:48,625 --> 01:02:50,500
<i>but it's someone else's life.</i>

1037
01:02:54,875 --> 01:02:56,083
<i>What does it feel like,</i>

1038
01:02:56,166 --> 01:02:58,208
being this other person?

1039
01:03:03,833 --> 01:03:05,333
Like a fantasy.

1040
01:03:19,666 --> 01:03:21,458
<i>I have to leave tomorrow.</i>

1041
01:03:21,541 --> 01:03:23,583
<i>Noelle got a cold,</i>

1042
01:03:23,666 --> 01:03:26,583
and, um, they're headed home.

1043
01:03:26,666 --> 01:03:29,833
I told her that I'd be home
before they got back.

1044
01:03:29,916 --> 01:03:30,916
So...

1045
01:03:31,000 --> 01:03:32,375
Of course.

1046
01:03:33,208 --> 01:03:36,166
You probably don't want to come to...

1047
01:03:36,250 --> 01:03:37,875
To London?

1048
01:03:39,416 --> 01:03:41,708
I mean, we could say goodbye now, but...

1049
01:03:42,875 --> 01:03:45,166
...I mean, obviously,
I don't want to do that.

1050
01:03:46,416 --> 01:03:51,333
♪<i> Cherry red balloon </i>♪

1051
01:04:01,416 --> 01:04:05,125
♪<i> I've run out of patience </i>♪

1052
01:04:05,208 --> 01:04:08,333
♪<i> at gasoline stations </i>♪

1053
01:04:08,416 --> 01:04:13,208
♪<i> It sounds kind of sad but true </i>♪♪

1054
01:04:15,833 --> 01:04:16,833
- Me?
- Yeah.

1055
01:04:16,916 --> 01:04:18,791
Must be impressive. Oh, here we go.

1056
01:04:18,875 --> 01:04:20,083
- Thank you.
- And for you, sir.

1057
01:04:20,166 --> 01:04:21,583
- Thank you so much.
- Pretty.

1058
01:04:22,208 --> 01:04:23,541
Looks nice. Do you want to share that?

1059
01:04:23,625 --> 01:04:25,166
- Yeah.
- Okay.

1060
01:04:28,916 --> 01:04:30,125
What's up?

1061
01:04:31,791 --> 01:04:33,041
Um...

1062
01:04:35,833 --> 01:04:37,500
Maya.

1063
01:04:39,458 --> 01:04:40,875
Maya?

1064
01:04:45,500 --> 01:04:46,750
Hi.

1065
01:04:47,916 --> 01:04:49,458
Hi. I-- You're, wha--

1066
01:04:50,958 --> 01:04:53,000
Wow. How-how-how... how are you?

1067
01:04:53,083 --> 01:04:54,458
Uh, uh...

1068
01:04:55,916 --> 01:04:57,208
What are you doing here?

1069
01:04:57,791 --> 01:04:59,708
I... Sorry.

1070
01:04:59,791 --> 01:05:02,375
I-I-I've spent so long trying
to get in touch with you.

1071
01:05:02,458 --> 01:05:03,458
I-I--

1072
01:05:03,541 --> 01:05:06,958
Um, I haven't really been reachable.

1073
01:05:08,500 --> 01:05:09,833
Uh-huh.

1074
01:05:11,791 --> 01:05:13,333
Yeah, I'm-I'm here with friends.

1075
01:05:13,416 --> 01:05:16,416
We're here for-for work. Are you...

1076
01:05:16,500 --> 01:05:17,500
You-you live here now?

1077
01:05:19,291 --> 01:05:20,708
No.

1078
01:05:25,791 --> 01:05:27,916
Sorry, I'm-I'm...

1079
01:05:29,625 --> 01:05:31,291
I-- This is...

1080
01:05:31,375 --> 01:05:33,250
I'm Felix.

1081
01:05:33,333 --> 01:05:34,625
Hey, man. I'm-I'm Jason.

1082
01:05:34,708 --> 01:05:35,916
Jason. Nice to meet you, mate.

1083
01:05:36,000 --> 01:05:38,208
- Yeah, nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

1084
01:05:39,291 --> 01:05:43,083
Jason is, um, my friend from Boston.

1085
01:05:43,166 --> 01:05:45,166
Nice. Nice.

1086
01:05:47,000 --> 01:05:49,083
"Friend from Boston"?

1087
01:05:50,125 --> 01:05:51,291
Really?

1088
01:05:51,375 --> 01:05:52,875
We were, we were family, Maya.

1089
01:05:52,958 --> 01:05:55,500
We-we... we spent holidays together.

1090
01:05:55,583 --> 01:05:57,458
I mean, we-we...

1091
01:05:57,541 --> 01:05:58,750
We did 12 Thanksgivings toget--

1092
01:05:58,833 --> 01:06:02,625
I-I... I made the speech at your wedding.

1093
01:06:02,708 --> 01:06:04,250
That's a lot of Thanksgivings.

1094
01:06:04,333 --> 01:06:05,708
Do you want to... do you want
to come and join us?

1095
01:06:05,791 --> 01:06:08,333
- No.
- Uh...

1096
01:06:08,416 --> 01:06:13,166
I mean, you, uh, got your...
dinner to go to.

1097
01:06:17,666 --> 01:06:19,166
What are you, what are you...

1098
01:06:19,250 --> 01:06:20,250
I mean, what-what are...

1099
01:06:20,333 --> 01:06:22,083
What the hell? What are you...

1100
01:06:22,166 --> 01:06:24,000
That's all you're gonna say to me?

1101
01:06:25,208 --> 01:06:26,541
I don't know what you want from me.

1102
01:06:26,625 --> 01:06:28,833
What I want from you?
I mean, you-you-you left.

1103
01:06:28,916 --> 01:06:29,916
You left, Maya.

1104
01:06:30,000 --> 01:06:31,500
I mean, you-you didn't say goodbye.
You didn't say any--

1105
01:06:31,583 --> 01:06:33,000
Do you know how long we spent
looking for you,

1106
01:06:33,083 --> 01:06:34,666
trying to get in touch with you
to make sure

1107
01:06:34,750 --> 01:06:36,916
that you were okay,
that everything was-was fine?

1108
01:06:37,000 --> 01:06:38,458
- I didn't ask you to do that.
- I know, but--

1109
01:06:38,541 --> 01:06:39,833
- I think that's enough. Thank you.
- It's okay. It's okay, really.

1110
01:06:39,916 --> 01:06:40,916
Will you just get out of here, please?

1111
01:06:41,000 --> 01:06:43,208
Will you just leave me alone?
Please? Go have a drink.

1112
01:06:43,291 --> 01:06:45,166
Go have ten drinks. Forget about this.

1113
01:06:45,750 --> 01:06:46,750
Okay?

1114
01:06:50,666 --> 01:06:51,875
Yeah.

1115
01:07:02,250 --> 01:07:03,625
Um...

1116
01:07:03,708 --> 01:07:05,666
- What was that?
- Can we get out of here?

1117
01:07:06,708 --> 01:07:08,833
I put...

1118
01:07:08,916 --> 01:07:12,500
everything I needed in two suitcases.

1119
01:07:13,916 --> 01:07:18,666
I took his phone, his keys
and his birth certificate,

1120
01:07:18,750 --> 01:07:20,958
and I put them in a Stop & Shop bag,

1121
01:07:21,041 --> 01:07:25,166
and I left it outside of Jason's door.

1122
01:07:25,250 --> 01:07:26,833
Um...

1123
01:07:30,583 --> 01:07:32,583
I didn't answer my phone.

1124
01:07:34,958 --> 01:07:36,958
I didn't even answer for his mom.

1125
01:07:39,250 --> 01:07:40,750
I...

1126
01:07:44,458 --> 01:07:45,875
I don't know.

1127
01:07:45,958 --> 01:07:47,333
I mean...

1128
01:07:51,541 --> 01:07:53,166
I guess I...

1129
01:07:54,750 --> 01:07:58,916
I couldn't be around, um...

1130
01:08:00,416 --> 01:08:02,708
...just for them to hate me, you know?

1131
01:08:02,791 --> 01:08:06,125
And blame me and...

1132
01:08:08,333 --> 01:08:09,666
You know.

1133
01:08:11,083 --> 01:08:14,041
Tell me that I should've
st-stayed somewhere else

1134
01:08:14,125 --> 01:08:16,458
and kept him safe and...

1135
01:08:17,541 --> 01:08:18,750
Um...

1136
01:08:21,333 --> 01:08:24,583
Yeah. I mean, and then there's...

1137
01:08:24,666 --> 01:08:26,333
Jason and what was, like...

1138
01:08:28,000 --> 01:08:29,833
I don't know.
I just couldn't deal with it.

1139
01:08:29,916 --> 01:08:31,333
I'm...

1140
01:08:32,541 --> 01:08:34,250
I, uh...

1141
01:08:37,708 --> 01:08:39,791
I called a Taskrabbit,

1142
01:08:39,875 --> 01:08:44,041
and I had them pack up my apartment

1143
01:08:44,125 --> 01:08:47,083
and put it in a storage unit,
and I went to the airport,

1144
01:08:47,166 --> 01:08:49,250
and I threw my phone away in a trash can,

1145
01:08:49,333 --> 01:08:51,666
and then I just didn't go back.

1146
01:08:57,166 --> 01:09:00,750
It's clarifying, I guess,

1147
01:09:00,833 --> 01:09:02,000
to have nobody.

1148
01:09:02,083 --> 01:09:03,833
Um, I don't know.

1149
01:09:05,125 --> 01:09:09,041
Just... float around like
a useless piece of matter in the void.

1150
01:09:11,541 --> 01:09:12,875
Uh...

1151
01:09:21,625 --> 01:09:25,333
They say you can't run away
from your life, but you can.

1152
01:09:27,416 --> 01:09:29,416
It just makes you a monster.

1153
01:10:00,083 --> 01:10:01,750
Thank you.

1154
01:10:01,833 --> 01:10:03,291
Yeah. You're welcome.

1155
01:10:16,375 --> 01:10:20,000
What if we just acknowledged
that there actually is something here?

1156
01:10:22,708 --> 01:10:24,708
What if we took that risk?

1157
01:10:27,500 --> 01:10:31,500
I mean, I know he was
the love of your life, and, um...

1158
01:10:33,916 --> 01:10:35,833
...I-I think that's beautiful.

1159
01:10:39,208 --> 01:10:41,208
But who's to say you can only have one?

1160
01:11:00,875 --> 01:11:02,208
Hey.

1161
01:11:02,291 --> 01:11:03,791
Do you know who this is?

1162
01:11:03,875 --> 01:11:04,916
I do.

1163
01:11:05,000 --> 01:11:06,875
And I've seen her before.

1164
01:11:06,958 --> 01:11:09,500
Noelle, this is our friend Maya.

1165
01:11:09,583 --> 01:11:11,541
- Hi.
- Hi.

1166
01:11:11,625 --> 01:11:13,916
- So nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you, too.

1167
01:11:14,000 --> 01:11:15,416
Papa.

1168
01:11:15,500 --> 01:11:17,000
Yeah, that's a...

1169
01:11:17,083 --> 01:11:18,500
that's a nice one. Yeah.

1170
01:11:18,583 --> 01:11:21,750
So we're-we're very into signs right now,
aren't we?

1171
01:11:21,833 --> 01:11:24,125
Especially signs with a slash through it.

1172
01:11:24,208 --> 01:11:27,875
If it has a "no" or a slash,
we really like those signs.

1173
01:11:27,958 --> 01:11:29,916
- Really love them right now, don't we?
- Mm-hmm.

1174
01:11:30,625 --> 01:11:32,500
I...

1175
01:11:32,583 --> 01:11:36,125
I might have something
you could help me with.

1176
01:11:36,208 --> 01:11:38,833
I saw this sign in Madrid.

1177
01:11:38,916 --> 01:11:42,958
It didn't have a slash or a "no,"
but I thought it was pretty cool.

1178
01:11:44,000 --> 01:11:45,750
{\an8}- What does it mean?
I don't know.

1179
01:11:45,833 --> 01:11:47,500
{\an8}I was thinking maybe you might know.

1180
01:11:47,583 --> 01:11:49,625
You seen that one before?

1181
01:11:49,708 --> 01:11:51,375
Never seen it before.

1182
01:11:51,458 --> 01:11:53,541
It's kind of existential.

1183
01:11:53,625 --> 01:11:55,291
Isn't it?

1184
01:11:56,958 --> 01:11:59,166
<i>Euh, en anglais, s'il te plaît.</i>

1185
01:11:59,250 --> 01:12:00,291
Oh, it's a secret.

1186
01:12:03,375 --> 01:12:05,291
Um...

1187
01:12:05,375 --> 01:12:07,000
I don't know, babe. Maybe.

1188
01:12:07,083 --> 01:12:08,875
Yeah? Maybe. We'll see.

1189
01:12:08,958 --> 01:12:10,958
We'll go and then we'll talk about it
a little bit later.

1190
01:12:11,041 --> 01:12:12,833
Yeah? Shall we give that
back to Maya? Yeah?

1191
01:12:12,916 --> 01:12:15,791
So it don't break,
'cause phones are expensive.

1192
01:12:15,875 --> 01:12:17,666
- Mm-hmm.
- And...

1193
01:12:17,750 --> 01:12:19,750
you go and grab your scooter, yeah?

1194
01:12:20,875 --> 01:12:21,875
Oh.

1195
01:12:21,958 --> 01:12:23,250
{\an8}Oh, skills.

1196
01:12:23,333 --> 01:12:26,583
{\an8}

1197
01:12:26,666 --> 01:12:27,750
{\an8}Ah, you can ride off.

1198
01:12:27,833 --> 01:12:29,750
{\an8}Just don't go too, too far, yeah?

1199
01:12:34,791 --> 01:12:37,416
What did Noelle whisper to you
at the park earlier?

1200
01:12:38,625 --> 01:12:39,625
Oh.

1201
01:12:39,708 --> 01:12:40,875
She, um...

1202
01:12:40,958 --> 01:12:44,958
She just asked me if you wanted
to come to her birthday party.

1203
01:12:50,375 --> 01:12:52,125
If it's too much...

1204
01:13:01,125 --> 01:13:02,625
Yeah, it's Mouse Trap.

1205
01:13:03,625 --> 01:13:05,083
The game.

1206
01:13:13,041 --> 01:13:14,083
Hey.

1207
01:13:14,166 --> 01:13:16,208
Felix! <i>Ça va?</i>

1208
01:13:16,291 --> 01:13:17,500
<i>Oui. Ça va.</i>

1209
01:13:17,583 --> 01:13:19,000
- Wow, looking sharp.
- Thank you.

1210
01:13:19,083 --> 01:13:20,750
And, Maya, hi.

1211
01:13:21,750 --> 01:13:24,041
Welcome. It's so lovely to have you.

1212
01:13:24,125 --> 01:13:25,708
Uh, you're so French.

1213
01:13:25,791 --> 01:13:26,958
Sorry.

1214
01:13:27,041 --> 01:13:28,666
- Yes, I-I have been told that.
- I told you.

1215
01:13:28,750 --> 01:13:30,958
Sorry, I can't hide it.

1216
01:13:31,041 --> 01:13:33,083
Thank you so much.

1217
01:13:33,166 --> 01:13:34,750
- Good job, Papa.
- Thank you.

1218
01:13:34,833 --> 01:13:36,833
- I know exactly what this is.
- Yeah, I listen, don't I?

1219
01:13:36,916 --> 01:13:38,750
- Yeah, you did.
- See? Do you want a drink?

1220
01:13:38,833 --> 01:13:40,500
- Yes, please.
- Yeah? Okay.

1221
01:13:40,583 --> 01:13:43,583
You're probably well aware
of our particular theme.

1222
01:13:43,666 --> 01:13:46,500
{\an8}- That cake is incredible.
Ah, thank you.

1223
01:13:46,583 --> 01:13:48,208
{\an8}I actually wanted to do "no smoking,"

1224
01:13:48,291 --> 01:13:49,958
{\an8}but Felix said it was inappropriate.

1225
01:13:50,041 --> 01:13:51,458
It was inappropriate.

1226
01:13:51,541 --> 01:13:53,125
- Absolutely, it was.
- It was appropriate. It was.

1227
01:13:53,208 --> 01:13:54,333
- Anna?
- Yeah?

1228
01:13:54,416 --> 01:13:55,541
Do you have any more red?

1229
01:13:55,625 --> 01:13:56,666
Yes. I'll be right back.

1230
01:13:56,750 --> 01:13:57,875
- Okay.
- Should we say "happy birthday"?

1231
01:13:57,958 --> 01:13:59,000
- Yeah.
- Yeah?

1232
01:13:59,083 --> 01:14:00,416
Hey, hey, happy birthday.

1233
01:14:00,500 --> 01:14:02,291
Where's the birthday girl? Where is she?

1234
01:14:04,291 --> 01:14:06,500
Happy birthday. Do you remember Maya?

1235
01:14:06,583 --> 01:14:07,833
- Should we say, "Hi, Maya"?
- Hi.

1236
01:14:07,916 --> 01:14:08,916
- Hi, Maya.
- Hi, Maya.

1237
01:14:23,291 --> 01:14:24,708
You okay?

1238
01:14:29,208 --> 01:14:31,208
Want me to go get your mom?

1239
01:14:49,125 --> 01:14:50,125
Oh, thank you.

1240
01:14:50,208 --> 01:14:53,166
Just leave that here
or anywhere you can find a space.

1241
01:14:53,250 --> 01:14:55,000
- Okay.
- Thank you so much.

1242
01:14:55,083 --> 01:14:56,333
Of course.

1243
01:14:59,875 --> 01:15:01,666
I'll hold it until the marble drops out.

1244
01:15:01,750 --> 01:15:02,833
Ready?

1245
01:15:09,708 --> 01:15:12,208
Do you ever worry that something's
gonna happen to her?

1246
01:15:13,875 --> 01:15:16,208
Um...

1247
01:15:16,291 --> 01:15:18,083
I mean...

1248
01:15:18,166 --> 01:15:20,416
do you, do you love her so much
that you sometimes

1249
01:15:20,500 --> 01:15:21,666
worry about, you know?

1250
01:15:21,750 --> 01:15:23,625
No, I-I understand the question.

1251
01:15:24,375 --> 01:15:26,375
Okay.

1252
01:15:27,250 --> 01:15:29,583
All the time.

1253
01:15:29,666 --> 01:15:32,458
It's... abject terror.

1254
01:15:34,333 --> 01:15:36,125
It's also love, I suppose.

1255
01:15:42,250 --> 01:15:43,750
Yeah. That's right.

1256
01:15:43,833 --> 01:15:45,791
What do you feel like for dinner?

1257
01:15:46,875 --> 01:15:48,291
We got the curry in the fridge.

1258
01:15:48,375 --> 01:15:53,125
Um... which you might not want twice.

1259
01:15:53,208 --> 01:15:55,541
Um, if not, we could pop out
a little bit later

1260
01:15:55,625 --> 01:15:58,041
and go to that place you like
around the corner.

1261
01:16:00,875 --> 01:16:02,583
I can't.

1262
01:16:02,666 --> 01:16:03,666
Huh?

1263
01:16:04,833 --> 01:16:06,166
I can't do this.

1264
01:16:07,208 --> 01:16:09,458
What... what do you mean?

1265
01:16:09,541 --> 01:16:11,875
I can't get entangled
in somebody else's life.

1266
01:16:11,958 --> 01:16:13,750
Not again. I'm sorry.

1267
01:16:16,750 --> 01:16:18,125
Um...

1268
01:16:23,041 --> 01:16:25,583
Uh, was it, was it the party
or... what was it?

1269
01:16:25,666 --> 01:16:27,458
All of it. It's all of it. It's...

1270
01:16:27,541 --> 01:16:29,375
You guys are a family.

1271
01:16:30,750 --> 01:16:32,000
Are-are you serious?

1272
01:16:35,125 --> 01:16:36,625
You're not.

1273
01:16:38,250 --> 01:16:40,750
You-- but you knew I had a...
you knew I had a daughter

1274
01:16:40,833 --> 01:16:42,416
and I'm co-parenting.

1275
01:16:42,500 --> 01:16:45,541
Like, that's... that's, like,
stuff you knew.

1276
01:16:48,416 --> 01:16:50,083
S-So, what-what do you, what do you want?

1277
01:16:50,166 --> 01:16:51,625
Is...

1278
01:16:51,708 --> 01:16:53,833
Do you want, like, just me and you
and the Algarve?

1279
01:16:53,916 --> 01:16:55,000
- Is that--
- I-I don't--

1280
01:16:55,083 --> 01:16:57,708
- I don't know.
- Do you want to be alone?

1281
01:17:05,791 --> 01:17:07,791
Maya, you know, you're...

1282
01:17:09,291 --> 01:17:11,208
...you're so...

1283
01:17:11,291 --> 01:17:14,458
you're so full of crap sometimes.

1284
01:17:16,041 --> 01:17:17,041
Do you know that?

1285
01:17:18,541 --> 01:17:20,458
This-this whole story about

1286
01:17:20,541 --> 01:17:23,791
you avoiding human connection
when it's clear that that's...

1287
01:17:23,875 --> 01:17:25,208
that's actually everything you want.

1288
01:17:25,291 --> 01:17:27,041
I can't do this!

1289
01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:34,833
Okay, fine. Yeah, go.

1290
01:17:37,458 --> 01:17:38,750
I'm not gonna chase you.

1291
01:17:42,458 --> 01:17:44,250
I'll leave your shit at the door!

1292
01:18:11,416 --> 01:18:13,416
♪<i> </i>♪

1293
01:18:26,541 --> 01:18:27,958
<i>Maya!</i>

1294
01:18:30,541 --> 01:18:33,125
<i>Maya, it's Ruth! Let me up!</i>

1295
01:18:36,208 --> 01:18:37,416
Maya.

1296
01:18:38,416 --> 01:18:40,416
♪<i> </i>♪

1297
01:18:47,416 --> 01:18:48,791
Maya!

1298
01:18:48,875 --> 01:18:49,916
It's Ruth!

1299
01:18:52,291 --> 01:18:55,208
<i>They won't let me into the hospital, Maya.</i>

1300
01:18:55,291 --> 01:18:56,625
I need your help.

1301
01:18:59,791 --> 01:19:01,416
Maya!

1302
01:19:01,500 --> 01:19:04,125
You need to come d-down here
and tell me what happened.

1303
01:19:04,208 --> 01:19:06,500
You need to come down here, Maya,

1304
01:19:06,583 --> 01:19:09,208
and tell me what happened

1305
01:19:09,291 --> 01:19:12,500
<i>to my son.</i>

1306
01:19:12,583 --> 01:19:13,875
<i>Maya, look at me!</i>

1307
01:19:13,958 --> 01:19:16,000
Look at my face.

1308
01:19:18,125 --> 01:19:19,125
You coward!

1309
01:19:19,208 --> 01:19:21,791
<i>Get down here.</i>

1310
01:19:21,875 --> 01:19:23,625
<i>After you got him sick!</i>

1311
01:19:23,708 --> 01:19:25,291
<i>You did this!</i>

1312
01:19:25,375 --> 01:19:26,791
<i>You did it!</i>

1313
01:19:28,541 --> 01:19:31,750
<i>You look at my face, you coward!</i>

1314
01:19:31,833 --> 01:19:33,208
You c...

1315
01:19:40,083 --> 01:19:42,083
What have you done?

1316
01:19:42,166 --> 01:19:43,958
What have you done, Maya?

1317
01:19:44,041 --> 01:19:45,416
What have you done?

1318
01:19:45,500 --> 01:19:47,708
Charlie, oh, my God.

1319
01:19:47,791 --> 01:19:49,125
No.

1320
01:19:50,583 --> 01:19:52,583
<i>Stay with it, Maya.</i>

1321
01:19:54,541 --> 01:19:56,416
<i>I really think we're getting somewhere.</i>

1322
01:20:09,500 --> 01:20:11,166
<i>-</i>
<i>-</i>

1323
01:20:19,333 --> 01:20:21,333
- Hi.
- Hi.

1324
01:20:28,750 --> 01:20:29,791
It's been months.

1325
01:20:31,458 --> 01:20:32,833
Yeah.

1326
01:20:32,916 --> 01:20:35,041
I, um...

1327
01:20:35,125 --> 01:20:38,125
think I've, like, lost all sense of time
at this point.

1328
01:20:39,500 --> 01:20:41,541
Yeah. Huh.

1329
01:20:43,041 --> 01:20:44,416
I got you a green tea.

1330
01:20:44,500 --> 01:20:46,125
- Wicked. Yeah, nice, nice.
- Want to sit down?

1331
01:20:46,208 --> 01:20:47,208
Thank you.

1332
01:20:54,375 --> 01:20:56,291
Uh, well, how are you?

1333
01:20:57,333 --> 01:20:59,083
Yeah. You look well.

1334
01:21:01,083 --> 01:21:03,958
Thanks. I just, um...

1335
01:21:04,041 --> 01:21:06,625
I just got back from Tokyo, actually.

1336
01:21:09,833 --> 01:21:12,166
I'm just gonna say this. Um, I...

1337
01:21:13,208 --> 01:21:17,083
Uh, I really don't want to, um...

1338
01:21:19,416 --> 01:21:21,541
I don't want to give up on us.

1339
01:21:21,625 --> 01:21:22,625
Wait.

1340
01:21:24,583 --> 01:21:26,416
Maya, uh...

1341
01:21:29,416 --> 01:21:32,541
You-you, uh, you were gone
for a long time.

1342
01:21:32,625 --> 01:21:34,333
You know?

1343
01:21:34,416 --> 01:21:35,875
Um...

1344
01:21:39,791 --> 01:21:42,541
Oh.

1345
01:21:42,625 --> 01:21:45,500
Um, Anna and I, we...

1346
01:21:45,583 --> 01:21:46,958
Oh.

1347
01:21:47,041 --> 01:21:49,750
Yeah. Yeah. Um...

1348
01:21:52,208 --> 01:21:55,000
I don't know. You-you and I had...

1349
01:21:55,083 --> 01:21:59,125
And, um, now you sort of just...

1350
01:21:59,208 --> 01:22:00,958
called my phone out of the blue,

1351
01:22:01,041 --> 01:22:04,625
and I don't really know
what to do with that, to be fair.

1352
01:22:07,500 --> 01:22:09,541
- Sorry.
- I just...

1353
01:22:09,625 --> 01:22:12,375
I-I... wasn't ready.

1354
01:22:12,458 --> 01:22:14,041
Yeah. No, I-I get that.

1355
01:22:15,000 --> 01:22:16,208
Yeah.

1356
01:22:19,833 --> 01:22:21,291
Uh...

1357
01:22:23,333 --> 01:22:26,458
This is... what I get.

1358
01:22:29,375 --> 01:22:31,916
Maya, you've got to stop
feeling sorry for yourself.

1359
01:22:33,458 --> 01:22:35,750
Just because we didn't,

1360
01:22:35,833 --> 01:22:38,416
or we couldn't, doesn't mean that, um...

1361
01:22:42,708 --> 01:22:44,750
What I'm trying to say is...

1362
01:22:46,375 --> 01:22:48,125
...this wasn't nothing.

1363
01:22:48,208 --> 01:22:53,500
And if you need to call me
in a year or two or five

1364
01:22:53,583 --> 01:22:56,375
just to make sure, then I will answer

1365
01:22:56,458 --> 01:22:58,666
and let you know that it was something.

1366
01:23:03,791 --> 01:23:06,000
I won't do that, but thank you.

1367
01:23:06,083 --> 01:23:08,000
- That's very nice.
- Is it? I don't know.

1368
01:23:17,000 --> 01:23:20,333
♪<i> When I'm with you, baby,</i>
<i>I go out of my head </i>♪

1369
01:23:20,416 --> 01:23:24,333
♪<i> and I just can't get enough,</i>
<i>and I just can't get enough </i>♪

1370
01:23:24,416 --> 01:23:27,916
♪<i> All the things you do to me</i>
<i>and everything you said </i>♪

1371
01:23:28,000 --> 01:23:31,375
♪<i> I just can't get enough,</i>
<i>I just can't get enough </i>♪

1372
01:23:32,083 --> 01:23:35,125
♪<i> We slip and slide as we fall in love </i>♪

1373
01:23:35,208 --> 01:23:39,708
♪<i> and I just can't seem</i>
<i>to get enough of </i>♪♪

1374
01:23:39,791 --> 01:23:41,791
♪<i> </i>♪

1375
01:24:03,375 --> 01:24:05,625
<i>Flight 291</i>
<i>is now boarding.</i>

1376
01:24:05,708 --> 01:24:08,583
<i>Passengers, please proceed to gate four.</i>

1377
01:24:16,833 --> 01:24:19,125
<i>Wow. So many of you.</i>

1378
01:24:19,708 --> 01:24:20,708
Bear with me.

1379
01:24:20,791 --> 01:24:24,041
Um, public speaking is not my usual thing,

1380
01:24:24,125 --> 01:24:28,541
but I really wanted to be a part
of this discussion about self-care.

1381
01:24:28,625 --> 01:24:31,000
I know. Cue eye roll.

1382
01:24:31,083 --> 01:24:35,750
But it's because I was an ED nurse
for the first few months of COVID

1383
01:24:35,833 --> 01:24:38,916
before I burnt out
and switched to telehealth.

1384
01:24:39,000 --> 01:24:40,666
Over the past six years,

1385
01:24:40,750 --> 01:24:44,000
we've begun to process
how that trauma affected our profession.

1386
01:24:44,083 --> 01:24:47,791
Not to mention the personal loss
that so many of us experienced.

1387
01:24:50,291 --> 01:24:53,708
But we have to take responsibility
for ourselves

1388
01:24:53,791 --> 01:24:55,416
in the same way that we do our patients.

1389
01:24:56,166 --> 01:24:57,583
<i>And I'm here to remind you</i>

1390
01:24:57,666 --> 01:24:59,958
<i>of some of the tools</i>
<i>that are available for you to do it.</i>

1391
01:25:00,041 --> 01:25:01,958
<i> You may hang up</i>
<i>or press one</i>

1392
01:25:02,041 --> 01:25:03,916
<i>- for more options.</i>

1393
01:25:05,208 --> 01:25:06,958
Uh, hey. Um...

1394
01:25:08,333 --> 01:25:10,083
This is Maya. I...

1395
01:25:11,083 --> 01:25:14,375
I don't even know if this is
the right number anymore, but...

1396
01:25:14,458 --> 01:25:18,458
I am actually in New Orleans right now.

1397
01:25:18,541 --> 01:25:21,291
<i>It's kind of crazy</i>
<i>to be back in the States.</i>

1398
01:25:21,375 --> 01:25:24,958
<i>I guess I was hoping</i>
<i>I could reconnect with you.</i>

1399
01:25:25,041 --> 01:25:26,208
<i>So...</i>

1400
01:25:26,291 --> 01:25:27,916
call me, uh, if you can.

1401
01:25:28,000 --> 01:25:29,708
Or, um...

1402
01:25:31,333 --> 01:25:32,958
Call me if you want to.

1403
01:25:33,041 --> 01:25:34,541
<i>- Okay.</i>

1404
01:25:34,625 --> 01:25:36,791
<i>I hope you're good. Bye.</i>

1405
01:25:39,250 --> 01:25:40,583
Hello?

1406
01:26:08,625 --> 01:26:11,541
♪<i> Oh, this poor and lonely heart </i>♪

1407
01:26:11,625 --> 01:26:13,708
Maya.

1408
01:26:13,791 --> 01:26:15,791
♪<i> It is made of pure steel </i>♪

1409
01:26:15,875 --> 01:26:17,458
- Hi.
- Hi.

1410
01:26:19,208 --> 01:26:20,708
♪<i> And you can't let it cry...</i>

1411
01:26:20,791 --> 01:26:22,208
How are you?

1412
01:26:23,500 --> 01:26:24,958
I'm...

1413
01:26:28,166 --> 01:26:30,125
I don't even know where to start. Um...

1414
01:26:33,583 --> 01:26:36,000
I... uh, I'm gonna get some...

1415
01:26:36,083 --> 01:26:37,666
- Excuse me.
- Yes?

1416
01:26:37,750 --> 01:26:39,083
Is there any way
I could get some water?

1417
01:26:39,166 --> 01:26:40,875
Absolutely.

1418
01:26:40,958 --> 01:26:42,666
Thank you.

1419
01:26:42,750 --> 01:26:44,416
Actually, do you want to put in drinks?

1420
01:26:44,500 --> 01:26:46,125
- Can we do, like...
- Uh...

1421
01:26:46,208 --> 01:26:48,291
...two dirty martinis, extra filthy,

1422
01:26:48,375 --> 01:26:50,000
- with all the little pickles and stuff?
- Maya, I'm...

1423
01:26:50,083 --> 01:26:52,541
Just, um, a sparkling water
for me, please.

1424
01:26:52,625 --> 01:26:54,375
- Sure thing.
- Yeah. Thank you.

1425
01:26:55,625 --> 01:26:56,958
Um...

1426
01:26:59,041 --> 01:27:00,208
- Yeah.
- Wow.

1427
01:27:00,291 --> 01:27:02,500
- Okay.
- That's-that's shocking, huh?

1428
01:27:03,500 --> 01:27:04,500
Yeah.

1429
01:27:07,166 --> 01:27:09,250
Um, we're...

1430
01:27:09,333 --> 01:27:10,791
different people, I guess, now.

1431
01:27:10,875 --> 01:27:11,875
Are we?

1432
01:27:12,458 --> 01:27:14,041
I mean, look at you.

1433
01:27:14,125 --> 01:27:15,125
Look at me.

1434
01:27:15,208 --> 01:27:17,708
You'd think that I'd spent
the last six years, um,

1435
01:27:17,791 --> 01:27:21,916
in a room talking to myself,
but I have not done that though.

1436
01:27:22,000 --> 01:27:24,875
Well, it-it hasn't been six years, but...

1437
01:27:33,125 --> 01:27:34,291
I'm so sorry.

1438
01:27:35,333 --> 01:27:37,250
I was awful.

1439
01:27:37,333 --> 01:27:40,666
That doesn't make it
any better, but I, um...

1440
01:27:42,041 --> 01:27:43,666
...I hadn't told the guy I was with
anything,

1441
01:27:43,750 --> 01:27:45,000
and I really didn't want him to know.

1442
01:27:45,083 --> 01:27:47,208
Yeah, no, I-I-I figured.

1443
01:27:47,291 --> 01:27:49,458
I mean, after the fact, but it was...

1444
01:27:50,708 --> 01:27:52,041
Yeah.

1445
01:28:00,166 --> 01:28:01,166
You were my best friend.

1446
01:28:04,291 --> 01:28:05,666
Um...

1447
01:28:06,250 --> 01:28:08,583
To leave you like that was just...

1448
01:28:15,000 --> 01:28:17,750
I've spent a lot of time,
um, thinking about

1449
01:28:17,833 --> 01:28:20,583
how the pain made me want to run

1450
01:28:20,666 --> 01:28:23,791
and how...

1451
01:28:23,875 --> 01:28:26,333
the running gave me...

1452
01:28:26,416 --> 01:28:30,583
all of this shame,
and I was just destructive.

1453
01:28:30,666 --> 01:28:33,750
I basically wanted to just obliterate

1454
01:28:33,833 --> 01:28:38,291
all the love in my life, I think,
so that I couldn't be hurt again.

1455
01:28:38,375 --> 01:28:40,500
You know? Um...

1456
01:28:40,583 --> 01:28:44,666
But I am in a lot of therapy now,
and I probably always will be.

1457
01:28:44,750 --> 01:28:46,333
Um...

1458
01:28:48,500 --> 01:28:50,750
But I just wanted to tell you that...

1459
01:28:52,833 --> 01:28:55,916
I am... totally humiliated...

1460
01:28:57,208 --> 01:29:00,166
...and I'm really, really sorry.

1461
01:29:15,208 --> 01:29:16,333
What?

1462
01:29:18,125 --> 01:29:19,791
- Are you enjoying this?
- Little bit.

1463
01:29:19,875 --> 01:29:22,791
Are you loving me groveling?

1464
01:29:24,750 --> 01:29:26,000
You're sick.

1465
01:29:26,083 --> 01:29:27,500
You're twisted.

1466
01:29:27,583 --> 01:29:29,083
I guess we're, uh...

1467
01:29:30,375 --> 01:29:31,750
...we're still the same people.

1468
01:29:33,333 --> 01:29:34,375
Can I buy you lunch?

1469
01:29:34,458 --> 01:29:36,333
Can I get you
a ridiculously overpriced steak?

1470
01:29:36,416 --> 01:29:39,458
Mm. You're not gonna like this.

1471
01:29:40,250 --> 01:29:41,500
I'm a vegan now.

1472
01:29:42,541 --> 01:29:44,541
Well, that's-that's...

1473
01:29:44,625 --> 01:29:46,750
I mean, it's these co-ops,
communal housing,

1474
01:29:46,833 --> 01:29:49,000
totally self-sufficient and sustainable.

1475
01:29:49,083 --> 01:29:51,666
It's this whole new world.

1476
01:29:51,750 --> 01:29:53,958
I mean, do you ever ask yourself, like,

1477
01:29:54,041 --> 01:29:56,208
who gets to live where, you know?

1478
01:29:56,291 --> 01:29:58,625
And then if we actually want to go and try
to interrogate that system,

1479
01:29:58,708 --> 01:30:00,083
then how do we want to live?

1480
01:30:00,166 --> 01:30:03,083
♪<i> Life is </i>♪

1481
01:30:03,166 --> 01:30:04,541
♪<i> It's never what you think it's for...</i>

1482
01:30:04,625 --> 01:30:07,208
What?

1483
01:30:07,291 --> 01:30:09,500
I have a place in Luxembourg.

1484
01:30:09,583 --> 01:30:13,166
I've actually been there
for two years now.

1485
01:30:13,250 --> 01:30:16,250
I... I have a kitchen garden.

1486
01:30:16,333 --> 01:30:18,333
- Wow.
- I know my neighbors.

1487
01:30:19,791 --> 01:30:20,916
Yeah.

1488
01:30:21,000 --> 01:30:25,541
And the guy that you were with
when I saw you?

1489
01:30:25,625 --> 01:30:28,333
Uh... that didn't work out.

1490
01:30:31,000 --> 01:30:32,875
But it was like a, um...

1491
01:30:32,958 --> 01:30:34,250
I'm glad it happened.

1492
01:30:34,333 --> 01:30:36,041
It was important.

1493
01:30:37,208 --> 01:30:39,333
It was important because of...?

1494
01:30:41,625 --> 01:30:42,916
- Um...
- What?

1495
01:30:43,000 --> 01:30:44,166
No, I...

1496
01:30:45,375 --> 01:30:48,583
I don't know how to talk about this
without talking about him.

1497
01:30:51,416 --> 01:30:52,708
Let's talk about him.

1498
01:30:52,791 --> 01:30:54,625
No, we don't have to. I just was...

1499
01:30:54,708 --> 01:30:56,333
I want to.

1500
01:30:58,666 --> 01:31:01,375
Trust me.
He used to be all I talked about.

1501
01:31:02,458 --> 01:31:04,333
Even inside of my own head.

1502
01:31:07,333 --> 01:31:09,250
Yeah, I, uh...

1503
01:31:09,333 --> 01:31:11,583
I miss him.

1504
01:31:11,666 --> 01:31:12,875
A lot.

1505
01:31:13,958 --> 01:31:17,833
<i>- </i>♪<i> Time is time and time and time again </i>♪
<i>- </i>♪<i> And what would you say...</i>

1506
01:31:17,916 --> 01:31:19,625
Me, too.

1507
01:31:23,208 --> 01:31:26,333
<i>- </i>♪<i> Time is time and time </i>♪
<i>- </i>♪<i> To make your escape </i>♪

1508
01:31:26,416 --> 01:31:30,375
<i>- </i>♪<i> and time again </i>♪
<i>- </i>♪ <i>you've captured the captor's fear </i>♪

1509
01:31:31,958 --> 01:31:32,958
♪<i> 'Cause I...</i>

1510
01:31:33,041 --> 01:31:34,666
<i>If you end up coming to Austin,</i>

1511
01:31:34,750 --> 01:31:37,125
<i>then you got to go to Diego's</i>
<i>and hear it for yourself.</i>

1512
01:31:37,208 --> 01:31:38,458
<i>Was that an invitation?</i>

1513
01:31:38,541 --> 01:31:39,541
Yeah.

1514
01:31:39,625 --> 01:31:42,208
I can't believe you go to the same place
and listen to the same band

1515
01:31:42,291 --> 01:31:44,583
- every Friday night.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

1516
01:31:44,666 --> 01:31:46,083
First off, Diego's is
an institution, okay?

1517
01:31:46,166 --> 01:31:48,541
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
- And the band is absolutely--

1518
01:31:48,625 --> 01:31:51,000
It's just-- it's a very-- it's a routine.

1519
01:31:51,083 --> 01:31:52,750
Yeah, but I'm Mr. Routine now.
I mean, I love routines.

1520
01:31:52,833 --> 01:31:54,583
- You're Mr. Routine now?
- Yes.

1521
01:31:54,666 --> 01:31:56,291
I love routines,
because in all the-the just--

1522
01:31:56,375 --> 01:31:58,125
- You're Mr. Routine now?
- Yes, in the--

1523
01:31:58,208 --> 01:32:01,000
Oh, God. These things.

1524
01:32:01,083 --> 01:32:02,458
I do not approve.

1525
01:32:02,541 --> 01:32:03,833
- I kind of love them.
- You love them?

1526
01:32:03,916 --> 01:32:05,375
Yes.

1527
01:32:05,458 --> 01:32:06,541
- No, no.
- Why?

1528
01:32:06,625 --> 01:32:08,333
'Cause you can talk to them. Watch.

1529
01:32:09,500 --> 01:32:10,916
Excuse me. Ooh.

1530
01:32:11,000 --> 01:32:12,583
Excuse me, little buddy.

1531
01:32:12,666 --> 01:32:15,083
Um, pardon my-my friend's rudeness
over here.

1532
01:32:15,166 --> 01:32:16,958
I just... I wanted to know:

1533
01:32:17,041 --> 01:32:20,125
Do you think we're put on Earth
for a reason?

1534
01:32:20,208 --> 01:32:22,125
Like, is there any meaning to any of this?

1535
01:32:22,208 --> 01:32:24,125
<i>Humans</i>
<i>can find profundity</i>

1536
01:32:24,208 --> 01:32:25,750
<i>in banal experiences,</i>

1537
01:32:25,833 --> 01:32:28,083
<i>though most human lives</i>
<i>are an amalgamation</i>

1538
01:32:28,166 --> 01:32:30,833
<i>of random events devoid of significance.</i>

1539
01:32:30,916 --> 01:32:32,458
- Mm.
<i>- This is just my personal feeling...</i>

1540
01:32:32,541 --> 01:32:34,125
Eh, this one must be broken.

1541
01:32:34,208 --> 01:32:35,541
<i> ...and in no way</i>
<i>reflects the views...</i>

1542
01:32:35,625 --> 01:32:36,750
<i>It was not that bad.</i>

1543
01:32:36,833 --> 01:32:38,791
No, it-it was though.
I mean, it was basically a mullet.

1544
01:32:38,875 --> 01:32:41,500
I was like an-an '80s wrestler
without any muscles.

1545
01:32:44,125 --> 01:32:45,666
Wow.

1546
01:32:45,750 --> 01:32:48,750
Thanks so much
for coming to meet me here.

1547
01:32:48,833 --> 01:32:51,666
It just... means a lot.

1548
01:32:53,416 --> 01:32:55,416
Come on, Maya.

1549
01:32:58,083 --> 01:33:00,458
You called, and I got in the car.

1550
01:33:00,541 --> 01:33:02,916
How many times have you done that for me?

1551
01:33:13,458 --> 01:33:17,166
Our wetlands are vital
in protecting the city against storms.

1552
01:33:17,875 --> 01:33:22,000
You know, people ask me,
"How long will New Orleans last?

1553
01:33:22,083 --> 01:33:25,125
Twenty-forty? Twenty-fifty?"

1554
01:33:25,708 --> 01:33:28,375
And I say, "You're asking
the wrong question."

1555
01:33:28,458 --> 01:33:31,666
Here's the question:
What are we doing about it?

1556
01:33:32,416 --> 01:33:33,583
<i>It's so crazy.</i>

1557
01:33:33,666 --> 01:33:37,666
<i>It's like, I know</i>
<i>that if you were still alive,</i>

1558
01:33:37,750 --> 01:33:42,208
<i>we'd be together, we'd have kids,</i>
<i>we'd have grown up together.</i>

1559
01:33:43,458 --> 01:33:47,500
<i>It's like there's</i>
<i>a whole other life that I...</i>

1560
01:33:48,916 --> 01:33:51,083
{\an8}<i>...obviously didn't live but I, like...</i>

1561
01:33:53,083 --> 01:33:54,333
...can imagine.

1562
01:34:11,750 --> 01:34:13,708
So what's it gonna take to see you again?

1563
01:34:14,916 --> 01:34:16,416
Another five or ten years?

1564
01:34:16,500 --> 01:34:19,958
Run into you in some random restaurant
in Shanghai somewhere?

1565
01:34:23,541 --> 01:34:26,208
I guess we'll just have to meet up
for Thanksgiving.

1566
01:34:50,916 --> 01:34:52,958
- Safe flight.
- Thanks.

1567
01:35:37,375 --> 01:35:38,958
Sorry. Excuse me.

1568
01:35:39,041 --> 01:35:40,416
I'm just gonna squeeze by you.

1569
01:35:40,500 --> 01:35:41,541
I'm...

1570
01:35:41,625 --> 01:35:43,208
Excuse me.

1571
01:36:00,041 --> 01:36:02,041
♪<i> </i>♪

1572
01:36:13,750 --> 01:36:16,541
Well, after a hundred years,
she finally shows up.

1573
01:36:20,875 --> 01:36:22,500
I'm really sorry.

1574
01:36:27,708 --> 01:36:29,000
Want one?

1575
01:36:41,083 --> 01:36:44,000
Can I ask what happened when I left?

1576
01:36:46,583 --> 01:36:48,583
What do you want to know?

1577
01:36:51,583 --> 01:36:55,250
Do you want to know how hard it was
to get his body released?

1578
01:36:56,666 --> 01:36:59,000
Well, you were the next of kin
and you were AWOL,

1579
01:36:59,083 --> 01:37:03,708
so they kept him in a refrigerated truck
for two weeks.

1580
01:37:08,958 --> 01:37:10,916
And then I planned his funeral.

1581
01:37:12,583 --> 01:37:17,083
And I didn't know
what kind of music he liked.

1582
01:37:17,166 --> 01:37:21,333
I didn't know
what music to play for my son.

1583
01:37:21,416 --> 01:37:23,500
Um, but you would've known that.

1584
01:37:24,166 --> 01:37:25,291
Right?

1585
01:37:34,291 --> 01:37:36,208
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

1586
01:37:37,750 --> 01:37:40,500
And I'm sorry...

1587
01:37:40,583 --> 01:37:42,625
uh, for how I...

1588
01:37:45,083 --> 01:37:47,625
...acted that night
outside your apartment.

1589
01:37:49,166 --> 01:37:51,375
That was horrible. I'm sorry.

1590
01:38:00,041 --> 01:38:01,916
Did you ever like me?

1591
01:38:05,416 --> 01:38:07,041
Uh, I didn't...

1592
01:38:09,333 --> 01:38:11,333
...want to not like you.

1593
01:38:12,916 --> 01:38:16,000
But at first you seemed so uncomfortable

1594
01:38:16,083 --> 01:38:19,541
and then maybe
just a little too comfortable.

1595
01:38:20,708 --> 01:38:23,083
And, uh...

1596
01:38:23,166 --> 01:38:26,125
the wedding actually,
the wedding really threw me.

1597
01:38:27,625 --> 01:38:29,750
The surprise of it all.

1598
01:38:29,833 --> 01:38:33,375
I felt, like, sort of rejected.

1599
01:38:36,166 --> 01:38:38,208
Did you like me?

1600
01:38:38,291 --> 01:38:39,916
Never mind.

1601
01:38:43,833 --> 01:38:44,833
I loved you.

1602
01:38:55,291 --> 01:38:56,666
God.

1603
01:39:03,500 --> 01:39:04,875
We're all right.

1604
01:39:08,416 --> 01:39:10,541
Grief is never finished.

1605
01:39:10,625 --> 01:39:12,916
It's never finished.

1606
01:39:14,750 --> 01:39:17,416
But neither is love.

1607
01:39:19,458 --> 01:39:20,458
Yeah.

1608
01:39:22,166 --> 01:39:24,541
I'm so stupid for...

1609
01:39:24,625 --> 01:39:25,916
I keep trying.

1610
01:39:26,000 --> 01:39:28,708
What are you... why are you stupid?

1611
01:39:28,791 --> 01:39:30,250
Keep trying.

1612
01:39:31,916 --> 01:39:33,708
That's good.

1613
01:39:33,791 --> 01:39:39,416
You don't know
what you at 60 or 70 or 80...

1614
01:39:39,500 --> 01:39:42,541
will say about your life.

1615
01:39:42,625 --> 01:39:45,000
If you did the right thing.

1616
01:39:45,083 --> 01:39:47,291
If you made the right choices.

1617
01:39:48,000 --> 01:39:52,000
That's why you really have to stay in love
with your own life

1618
01:39:52,083 --> 01:39:55,708
while it's happening,
whatever it throws at you.

1619
01:39:57,041 --> 01:39:58,791
Whatever it's thrown at us.

1620
01:40:00,166 --> 01:40:01,833
That's what I tell my own kids.

1621
01:40:03,000 --> 01:40:04,000
Hi.

1622
01:40:05,583 --> 01:40:08,000
Oh, look who it is, Wilma.

1623
01:40:08,083 --> 01:40:09,458
Your old buddy.

1624
01:40:09,541 --> 01:40:10,750
It's Maya.

1625
01:41:05,916 --> 01:41:07,166
<i>Do me a favor.</i>

1626
01:41:07,958 --> 01:41:09,541
Just close your eyes real quick.

1627
01:41:11,083 --> 01:41:12,291
Please.

1628
01:41:13,291 --> 01:41:15,000
Trust me.

1629
01:41:15,708 --> 01:41:17,208
Okay.

1630
01:41:17,291 --> 01:41:21,833
Okay, you hear forks clinking on plates.

1631
01:41:21,916 --> 01:41:24,416
Hear my ice crackling in the glass.

1632
01:41:25,958 --> 01:41:28,166
Traffic outside.

1633
01:41:30,625 --> 01:41:31,916
A laugh.

1634
01:41:32,000 --> 01:41:34,750
Now think about all the sounds
you might not notice.

1635
01:41:34,833 --> 01:41:36,666
That hum of the neon lights in the window.

1636
01:41:37,833 --> 01:41:40,791
The pool game in the back of the bar.

1637
01:41:40,875 --> 01:41:42,583
It's just layers of auditory information

1638
01:41:42,666 --> 01:41:44,708
that's creating this environment
you're in, right?

1639
01:41:44,791 --> 01:41:46,791
Right, and that environment
gives you a feeling,

1640
01:41:46,875 --> 01:41:48,833
consciously or subconsciously.

1641
01:41:48,916 --> 01:41:51,041
And that feeling affects
your central nervous system.

1642
01:41:52,083 --> 01:41:54,375
But, uh, you know all about that, so...

1643
01:41:57,000 --> 01:41:58,416
Yeah. I do.

1644
01:42:08,625 --> 01:42:12,458
What's gonna happen
when all the iron oxide powder wears off?

1645
01:42:12,541 --> 01:42:14,541
Notes will still be there.

1646
01:42:14,625 --> 01:42:18,166
But the, uh, tails will just get
shorter and shorter, and then...

1647
01:42:20,333 --> 01:42:22,333
...it's just gonna be white noise.

1648
01:43:54,541 --> 01:43:56,541
♪<i> </i>♪

1649
01:44:03,125 --> 01:44:05,583
♪<i> So long ago </i>♪

1650
01:44:05,666 --> 01:44:07,458
♪<i> Certain place </i>♪

1651
01:44:07,541 --> 01:44:09,500
♪<i> Certain time </i>♪

1652
01:44:11,166 --> 01:44:13,625
♪<i> You touched my hand </i>♪

1653
01:44:13,708 --> 01:44:15,625
♪<i> on the way </i>♪

1654
01:44:15,708 --> 01:44:19,208
♪<i> on the way down to Emmeline </i>♪

1655
01:44:19,291 --> 01:44:24,166
♪<i> But if our paths never cross </i>♪

1656
01:44:24,250 --> 01:44:26,708
♪<i> well, you know I'm sorry, but </i>♪

1657
01:44:26,791 --> 01:44:30,666
♪<i> if I live to see the seven wonders </i>♪

1658
01:44:30,750 --> 01:44:34,666
♪<i> I'll make a path to the rainbow's end </i>♪

1659
01:44:34,750 --> 01:44:39,958
♪<i> I'll never live</i>
<i>to match the beauty again </i>♪

1660
01:44:40,958 --> 01:44:43,750
♪<i> The rainbow's end </i>♪

1661
01:44:46,666 --> 01:44:48,375
♪<i> Aaron </i>♪

1662
01:44:50,750 --> 01:44:53,000
♪<i> Aaron </i>♪

1663
01:44:59,541 --> 01:45:01,625
♪<i> So it's hard to find </i>♪

1664
01:45:01,708 --> 01:45:07,500
♪<i> someone with that kind of intensity </i>♪

1665
01:45:07,583 --> 01:45:09,416
♪<i> You touched my hand </i>♪

1666
01:45:09,500 --> 01:45:12,041
{\an8}♪<i> I played it cool </i>♪

1667
01:45:12,125 --> 01:45:15,625
{\an8}♪<i> and you reached out your hand to me </i>♪

1668
01:45:15,708 --> 01:45:20,625
{\an8}♪<i> But if our paths never cross </i>♪

1669
01:45:20,708 --> 01:45:23,083
{\an8}♪<i> well, no, I'm not sorry, but </i>♪

1670
01:45:23,166 --> 01:45:27,041
{\an8}♪<i> if I live to see the seven wonders </i>♪

1671
01:45:27,125 --> 01:45:31,041
{\an8}♪<i> I'll make a path to the rainbow's end </i>♪

1672
01:45:31,125 --> 01:45:36,541
{\an8}♪<i> I'll never live</i>
<i>to match the beauty again </i>♪

1673
01:45:37,791 --> 01:45:40,875
{\an8}♪<i> The rainbow's end </i>♪

1674
01:45:40,958 --> 01:45:42,958
{\an8}♪<i> </i>♪

1675
01:45:51,208 --> 01:45:53,708
{\an8}♪<i> Aaron </i>♪

1676
01:45:59,416 --> 01:46:01,791
{\an8}♪<i> Aaron </i>♪

1677
01:46:04,166 --> 01:46:06,708
{\an8}♪<i> So long ago </i>♪

1678
01:46:06,791 --> 01:46:08,833
{\an8}♪<i> It's a certain time </i>♪

1679
01:46:08,916 --> 01:46:10,875
{\an8}♪<i> It's a certain place </i>♪

1680
01:46:12,416 --> 01:46:14,916
{\an8}♪<i> You touched my hand </i>♪

1681
01:46:15,000 --> 01:46:16,958
{\an8}♪<i> and you smiled </i>♪

1682
01:46:17,041 --> 01:46:20,833
{\an8}♪<i> All the way back,</i>
<i>you held out your hand </i>♪

1683
01:46:20,916 --> 01:46:25,500
{\an8}♪<i> If I hope and if I pray </i>♪

1684
01:46:25,583 --> 01:46:28,083
{\an8}♪<i> ooh, it might work out someday </i>♪

1685
01:46:28,166 --> 01:46:31,958
{\an8}♪<i> If I live to see the seven wonders </i>♪

1686
01:46:32,041 --> 01:46:36,000
{\an8}♪<i> I'll make a path to the rainbow's end </i>♪

1687
01:46:36,083 --> 01:46:41,458
{\an8}♪<i> I'll never live</i>
<i>to match the beauty again </i>♪

1688
01:46:44,250 --> 01:46:45,958
{\an8}♪<i> If I live to see the seven wonders </i>♪

1689
01:46:46,041 --> 01:46:48,125
{\an8}♪<i> If I live to see</i>
<i>the seven wonders </i>♪

1690
01:46:48,208 --> 01:46:50,250
{\an8}♪<i> I'll make a path to the rainbow's end </i>♪

1691
01:46:50,333 --> 01:46:52,208
{\an8}♪<i> I'll make a path there </i>♪

1692
01:46:52,291 --> 01:46:54,375
{\an8}♪<i> I'll never live</i>
<i>to match the beauty again </i>♪

1693
01:46:54,458 --> 01:46:57,750
{\an8}♪<i> I'll never live to see</i>
<i>that beauty, that beauty </i>♪

1694
01:46:57,833 --> 01:47:00,416
{\an8}♪<i> that same, same beauty again </i>♪

1695
01:47:00,500 --> 01:47:02,333
{\an8}♪<i> If I live to see the seven wonders </i>♪

1696
01:47:02,416 --> 01:47:04,375
{\an8}♪<i> If I live to see the </i>♪

1697
01:47:04,458 --> 01:47:08,416
{\an8}♪<i> I'll make a path to the rainbow's end </i>♪

1698
01:47:08,500 --> 01:47:11,375
{\an8}♪<i> I'll never live</i>
<i>to match the beauty again </i>♪

1699
01:47:11,458 --> 01:47:14,750
{\an8}♪<i> Well, if I hope and I pray,</i>
<i>well, maybe it might </i>♪♪

1700
01:47:14,833 --> 01:47:16,750
{\an8}

1701
01:47:16,833 --> 01:47:18,833
{\an8}

1702
01:47:48,791 --> 01:47:50,791
{\an8}♪<i> </i>♪

1703
01:48:20,791 --> 01:48:22,791
{\an8}♪<i> </i>♪

1704
01:48:52,791 --> 01:48:54,791
{\an8}♪<i> </i>♪



